#shush ghost

[viktortittiforov]

second week at a new (open plan) office job (my 1st full-time job) as an insanely anxious person is like [brings lunch to work in tupperware but doesn't know if said tupperware is microwave-safe, so puts lunch on a plate before using microwave, but also doesn't want to make too much noise by eating lunch off the plate, therefore puts lunch back inside tupperware after heating it prior to eating] [doesn't want to be bothered with that frankly ridiculous ordeal the next day so just eats lunch off a plate, but does it by carefully picking off bit after tiny individual bit with a fork for fear of making noise by dragging the fork across the plate]

please end me i've been eating this vegan bean chilli pasta for like 30 minutes now

[viktortittiforov]

being on this website for 10+ years is truly a strange experience, especially since for the last like..... 5 of those years i haven't been terribly active on here. i still follow a bunch of people, but i feel like i only ever see like 7 accounts actually post anything these days, and most of those i don't remember who they are cause they're changed their icons/urls and stuff :") it's like being in some sort of weird alienating dream

[viktortittiforov]

after 3 weeks at my first full-time job i've come to believe that having to work 40hrs a week is the thing that is soon going to finally radicalize me enough to set some high-ranking government official who allows this to be legal on fire

[viktortittiforov]

sometimes i wish i could just exist in the world like a normal person. but alas

[viktortittiforov]

havin a gay moment and thinking about the fact that there are ppl who i've been mutuals w/ for like 10+ years on here........ like i know it's a common tumblr experience but i'm so emotional about it sometimes!!! so many of us pretty much grew up alongside one another and yet most of us never even met. we are all scattered around this world which is at once huge and tiny and we look out at one another from our little perches in this intimate vastness. and we have been doing that for so long. there's something so very tender about that!!

[viktortittiforov]

i think i am most in love with the world when i get to write or take photos, maybe draw/paint as well. for so long i've felt that i don't have like a need to make art, y'know, like how some people say they cannot go without doing it. i didn't think that was me. but maybe that's what this is, maybe me feeling that deep and undefinable love and tenderness is an expression of that need existing. maybe that's my body's way of reacting to an unknown need being fulfilled.

[viktortittiforov]

i figured it out god bless

ehnyways,,, what do u do when you have a mutual and you think it might be someone who was very dear to you a long time ago but you're not sure and there's no non-awkward way to try and ask and in any case you haven't spoken in so long but you're still curious.....

like even if it's not that person i'm happy just to have a nice mutual!! but if it was that person then i'd be super happy to even just know they're around in some way. like we don't. even need to talk i'm just really fond of them and the memories we have together!!! aaaahdsjdh i'm so embarrassing lmfao goodbye this is just me bein gay and venting

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how do u make readmores on tumblr mobile? is that like. possible