#shutupleon

[sleepinbird]

Today was crap. I feel like crap. My damn cramps are back. My mom's making me feel guilty about my weight again. Just last night I was feeling so pretty about myself. I cant drive right. I keep forgetting to take my meds. My suicidal thoughts are coming back. Im so overwhelmed and I'm barely even into the rehearsal  run of the show Im assisting with. Ugh.  

[sleepinbird]

Its 2am, Im laying here in my bra and shorts with my cat sleeping on me as I cry and reblog Robin Williams. 

[sleepinbird]

Im so fucking sick of crying

[sleepinbird]

Oh my god Im so annoyed and hot and I just want cold fruit and video games and to be left alone. ugh. 

[sleepinbird]

Rant. Dont like, dont read.

Ok, so I dont normally post stuff like this because I'll probably get hate or no one cares or whatever, but like, I'm about done with all this male entitlement and harassment of women and stuff. (I'll save my straight hate rant for another day)

Do you guys realize that we now live in a culture where guys think its ok to beat and kill women if they get turned down? A culture where men think its bad to be considered a girl's friend? A culture where girls are scared to go out alone without some sort of way to protect themselves? A culture where women are made to feel bad about themselves if they dont give men what they want? I feel unprotected and unsafe when I go out without a box cutter. It makes me sad that I live in a world like this. In a world so cruel. And I know this post doesnt mean anything to anyone, but this is my blog and I'll post whatever I want. I want to be able to be friends with guys without being scared of getting stabbed or like I cant trust them. I dont want to have to play scenes in my head of what I would do if I were attacked. Its sad and scary. And I guess I'm done.

[sleepinbird]

I'm sad and I don't know why send help

[sleepinbird]

Hoping today will be good....

[sleepinbird]

I could really use a hug...