August 27th, 2018
you know ive said i would stop writing to you,. but those were never goodbye enough. thjis is the final act my darling. i dont even know whats in store, im a lottle drunk and or high. you decide and bite me. You know how i like it ;)
i wanna fucking die and like why?? its ruiniing a lot ya know? I cant enjoy myself. as soon as i am having fun or actually happy for once i shut down. what is this shit jax? huh? are you fucking hjappy? happy that im miserable? you got what you wanted. i cant see a future with me being happy. that was never in cards. never for me. always fucking something that will bring it all down. i have a ggood thing going on rn and i am just waiting for it it crash. i cant be happy. i canmt. sometihing always. fuck. how did this happen. what. fuck.
although im mentally fucked for the time being, id thought id let you know. im finally okay with the fact that well never see each other again. talk to each other. anything. im okay. youre toxic. youre manipulative. youre selfish. youre mean. and your lack of attachment to people is alarming. i dont need you. i am free of you. you always made me feel bad. always. How was what we had called love? youre done controlling me. no one can control me anymore., they never fucking will
this is the first step. goodbye ya fuck.
