se7en
Tell me about your siblings:
I have two older brothers: Elton and Yuton. Elton is 5.5 years older than me, and Yuton is 2.5 years older than me. In the past few weeks, they have protected me from my parents and from each other. When my parents were attacking me, Yuton swooped in the protect just as he always had when I felt like my world was crumbling around me. He has always been my pillar and my role model. He has always been one of my best friends and I am beyond grateful for him. We are so similar in so many ways. We're both beyond stubborn. We like the same music and we enjoy the same shows. We understand one another and he is one of the best people in the world. When I'm afraid, he isn't, and I can't thank him enough for him. I'm not as close to Elton but he has shown me more kindness in recent events than Yuton has and I understand it's a complicated situation. Elton protected me and thought things through with me one step at a time. I've never been one to get myself in trouble so I've never needed him. But the moment something big happened, he stepped up and he got through everything with me slowly. For that, I am grateful.
I have two younger stepsisters. Regardless of the fact that we no longer talk, I still care about them. One of them is a junior in high school now and the other is a sophomore in college. I'm proud of them, I really am. But they can't be trusted. I can't trust them. My situation at home is rather complicated. I only wish them the best.
Then I have my munchkin julianamaaa. She is a wonderful, wonderful person and I only hope that she learns to believe in herself the way I believe in her. I can only hope that she sees herself with more love and beauty. I need her to know that everything will work itself out and everything will be okay. I need her to know that she is more resilient and more brilliant than she could ever imagine. I need her to know that she is stronger than she believes and far greater. I need her to know that she is loved when she thinks no one is listening or watching. Juliana, I need you to know that I will always be here for you, infallibly. You will always have a reason to believe.
Then I have Esther. She was my little in swim and she was an amazing person. I love her more than life itself. I would give anything to tell her I love her. It was a year and half on the 22nd of September. I miss you so much. I miss you so much it hurts. Thank you for watching over me. Thank you for protecting me. I wouldn't have it out of there alive without you.