May 11
Having to think critically about my relationship with gender and sexuality
#my posts about guys are kinda jokes mostly that ts genuinely causes me a lot of mental stress#Comphet as a bi girl is kinda crazy cuz I do like guys I do like dihh but I'm also mainly doing this to perform#sigh... life is performance....#I don't think I've been both comfortable and happy in my presentation of myself in a long time#Performing to being a woman genuinely sucking my soul out of me#and it's not because I'm trans and haven't realized it yet I know I wouldn't be happy as anything else#it's just that being woman in social media conformist capitalist whatever whatever life is SOUL SUCKING!!! unless you can escape the Circum#also I keep doubting if I even like girls. but like girl u haven't even given it a try really#bc you've been so busy trying to find a man for the idea of being a woman with a man#also my success competition driven self is an issue that is unfortunately in all aspects of my life including this#vent#honestly maybe I should try being a guy for a bit but also that's a lot of work#like the idea of being a little swagapino dude