#silent illness

[acurvypixie]

Overdid it today. Paying for it.

[cottonwoodsandferns]

I have been diagnosed with a chronic silent illness and I don't feel comfortable talking about it anywhere else but here. I think I'm mourning the body I once had and took for granted without knowing I was taking it for granted and I miss so badly all the things I could freely do without excruciating pain getting the best of me. It's more mentally straining on me at this point, no answers, no cure, no fix, medication that could possibly work but then doesn't so you have to try different ones and the side effects of those are horrible and add to the pain. I just want things to go back to how they were. I'm literally nothing but a skeleton, something I always strived for (not healthy mentality, I know) but now that I am here I don't want it, I want a healthy happy body and mind. I just want a bit of normalcy, my normalcy. I know I'm not alone in this and I am saddened by how many people this effects globally, and I hope one day there is a cure and that all the beings effected get real treatment, real remission, and a real cure. I wouldn't wish this disease on anyone for any reason ever.

[acurvypixie]

I’m in so much pain right now. No clue why.

[acurvypixie]

I think the weather has activated my fibromyalgia today… 😩

[acurvypixie]

High pain day… came on in last 2 hours. Haven’t had one of these in awhile… 😫

[acurvypixie]

If you notice I’m not around as much, it’s because I’m dealing with a health issue. I have ringing in my ears non-stop 24/7. Sometimes it’s so bad I can’t think straight and I can’t even read. It could be a reaction to something in my cosmetics/skin care or food. Or it could be related to my fibromyalgia. Anyway, I’m having a hard time with this so please be patient. If you say prayers I would appreciate them! 💕💕

[acurvypixie]

Feeling pretty badly tonight. Pain go away. 🥲

[acurvypixie]

Rough day. Fibromyalgia really is the pits. I feel so alone. Touch sure would help. At least I have the dogs. 💕