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[xsorcier]

Miller's Dam A Medieval/Storybook inspired build totally inspired by the Storybook Windmill by SilverTM built specially to test the brand new terrain tools that are now part of base game for free with this months patch. This is a completely CC free build but I do use the list of Expansion Packs below. - Get to Work - Get Together - Parenthood - Cats & Dogs -Jungle Adventures    - Outdoor Retreat - Perfect Patio - Movie Hangout - Backyard

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[angelavengeda]

hc + vulnerability

it really isn’t any secret that isabelle struggles to show vulnerability.  during the first portion of the series,  she trusts precisely four people:  alec, jace, maryse, and max.   now, i’m inclined to believe the list expands in later years to include simon, magnus, and clary, but that’s a point for another day.

even though isabelle verbally states she trusts those four people, we rarely see grand displays of vulnerability around them.  think about when max dies,  and she locks herself away in her bedroom for days at a time.  she’s known for throwing shoes at both jace and alec when they try to push themselves into her room,  even though they’re the two people who probably understand her the best.  frankly,  even the people she trusts,  she keeps at just enough of a distance to protect herself.  

but why?  it would be easy to blame this rock solid wall on maryse’s decision to confide in izzy when she was just a little girl.  this absolutely shattered izzy’s perception of a trusting world,  but i’d wager to bet it runs even deeper than that.  

at some point, we learn that maryse was one of the first female shadowhunters of her kind.  she was strong and borderline cutthroat,  waltzing through the halls of the shadowhunter academy with her head held high.  it’s stated that she purposefully keeps izzy away from the kitchen because she’s afraid her daughter will be relegated to the homemaker role forever if she learns how.  i don’t think it’s too much of a stretch to envision a world in which isabelle is raised, from a small child, to never show emotion.  to hide her vulnerabilities under layers and layers of projected confidence,  and to lick her emotional wounds in peace.  sure, the revelation of robert’s infidelity rocked izzy to her core and, in many ways, sealed her fate of having such a sky-high wall, but izzy was already this way.  she was hardwired,  from the beginning,  to repress at all costs.  it’s what makes her the fierce shadowhunter she is,   but it’s also what makes it so very difficult for izzy to develop anything more than surface-level friendships.

[angelavengeda]

izzy & alec

for the longest time,   izzy wondered whether her brother would ever find happiness.   true happiness, the kind that can only come when you accept who you really are.   for her,  it was incredibly easy to accept alec for precisely who he was.  from her first hint at his sexuality to the night he announced his relationship with magnus,  she accepted him,  believed in him,  and loved him.   fiercely,  protectively,  loyally. 

watching alec deal with his truth was painful for izzy.   the sort of painful that left her scared,   panicked every time someone came close to sniffing it out before he was ready.   on more than one occasion,  she did everything she could to throw people off:   covering with their parents,  diverting jace’s attention,  demanding that clary keep the realization to herself.   anything to keep him safe,  to make him feel more secure,  to protect alec from anyone who might threaten his place in the shadowhunter world. 

jace,   she sometimes feared,  was a threat.   she grew to love jace for his tenacity and dedication to training  ( and, y’know, the fact he always wanted her to tag along on their super secret missions ),   but he scared her, too.   alec looked at jace the same way he looked at izzy’s posters of those mundie singers;    the only difference was,  jace was real.  he was real and tangible and living under their same roof.   she saw the intensity with which alec looked at him,  the way he’d throw himself head-first into danger if it meant keeping jace alive.   it terrified her,  the thought that alec might feel something for him   ----   terrified her even more, because she knew jace didn’t.   in jace’s eyes, they were brothers.  in alec’s,  they were something different altogether. 

enter magnus bane:   the glittery,  ostentatious warlock.  maybe not the ideal partner for a shadowhunter,   but someone who was fastidiously sure of himself   ( and his sexuality ).   from that first night at the loft,  izzy saw a kinship there.   magnus was someone who would understand,   who wouldn’t judge alec or be a danger to his standing within the clave.   ( and,  hey,  he was cute,   and if she got to pilfer through his extensive collection of glitter and rouge,  she wouldn’t be upset about that, either.  )    she tried dropping hints   ----   “i thought you might hit it off.”  isabelle’s eye makeup glittered as bright as tears as she glanced over at her brother. “get to be friends.”  -----  but alec was stubborn & resolute.   so, she settled for letting him do things on his own time,  though she was quick to drop little hints and comments along the way. 

it goes without saying that izzy is unbelievably proud of who alec is today.  she looks at him and sees everything thirteen-year-old izzy was terrified she wouldn’t:   someone who is comfortable with who he is,  what he wants,  and how he lives his life.  someone who has found a true, everlasting love,  complete with the two adorable children she gets to call her nephews.   looking at alec now,  so beautifully happy and sure of himself,   she feels nothing but peace.   this is what she wanted for him,  and she’s thankful every single day for the person her big brother has become.