emotions
So many people hate them. And on one hand, I get that. They can be painful, they can be confusing, they can be all muddled up or making you feel horrid.
But in the other hand, why? I would much rather be able to feel, than to be numb. But I really enjoying feeling, and am able to process what I’m feeling pretty well, and I think that helps; when you can understand what to do with your emotions rather than letting them control you.
I hate not being able to feel. I hate being numb. Feelings are at my core (but I have logic! I promise!!) so without them it makes me feel cold, and I dislike being cold.
Numbness is chilly white. No color. Poking, and no response. Lethargic. Your emotions have deceased, or at least gone into hibernation. You can’t feel pain, but you can’t feel ANYTHING.
That scares me. Having those little flames that run all over your body gone, those funny little happy bubbles and butterflies skittering around your stomach and ballooning into laughter, the way your lip tweaks up at the corner when you’re feeling sarcastic, when disappointment comes and your insides turn grey.
The positive emotions, and the negative. They add height, and they add depth. Not always pleasant, but they often give perspective, and for that I’m grateful.