#sith jaina

[elvars]

This is as sith!leia

[virtualtoybox]

Star Wars AU - Dark Lady Afreia and her apprentice; the prophet

Jaina.

When they were alone, her mother called her Jaina.

Jaya sometimes, even still, but that name was reserved for hushed tones and bright tears.

No, it was the name Jaina that made her feel safest, said as though the very thought of her was something precious. Sometimes her mother would stroke through her short hair, choppy and uneven on the ends from years of haircuts she’s given herself. On rare occasions her mother felt comfortable enough to place a gentle kiss on Man- Jaina’s forehead. A point of contact that usually left the young girl trembling under her skin for more of it.

She thinks she remembers a time when her mother would hold her close, whispering her love into Jaina’s hair like a morning prayer with butterfly kisses anywhere the woman could reach. She would like to remember it. It would be nice if she could just remember it.

The girl tries her best to call herself Jaina, at least in her own head. When she feels brave enough, she says it aloud just to feel the sound of it in her mouth. She likes to think of herself as Jaina, because when they were alone, her mother called her Jaina.

“Manteia, I need you to focus.”

...They were not alone.