#sittingintheoldgumtree

[sittingintheoldgumtree]

They Tell Me Things

They tell me that we’re perfect together

That you’re calmer when I’m around

And I’m brighter when you’re near

They tell me that we look good together

That your arms were meant to hold me

And my hand was meant for yours.

They tell me that we need each other

That I help you accept your emotions

And you keep me from going crazy.

They tell me that we’re soul mates

That we could be the ones who make it

And end up getting married.

They tell me that it’s obvious

That my eyes give me away

And I smile more when you’re near.

They tell me that you’ll fall for me

That you’ll finally wake up

And see me as more than a friend.

I already know these things

I know that we are perfect

I know that we make sense

I know that without you I would lose my mind

I know that you’re my soul mate

I know that my feelings are written all over my face.

But you know nothing of this

And you will not fall for me

It doesn’t matter what everyone else thinks

When you can’t and won’t love me.

All that matters is you. It’s always you.

[sittingintheoldgumtree]

Dear lovely followers, I could use some life advice, as a I lack the ability to make decisions. And you all seem to have your lives a bit more together. 

I met this awesome guy on Friday. We had so much fun together, and we texted right after he left but... Nothing since then. 

So what do you think I should do? Should I keep waiting, or should I make a move?

[sittingintheoldgumtree]

YOU CAN READ EVEN IF YOU ARE ROMANTICALLY INVOLVED WITH SOMEONE. YOU CAN BE THOUGHTFUL AND OBSERVANT EVEN IF YOU ARE ATTRACTIVE. Your appearance does not determine your personality. Please you are a pretty girl even if you cannot see, traditional beauty is no longer the scale which women have to measure themselves, enjoy your features. Your post makes it sound as if you discriminate against people who are attractive by saying you wouldn't be smart...

Woah, easy there anon, you're reading a lot into what I posted. 

What I'm saying is that my insecurities helped to shape who I am as a person. I'm not saying that my life/feelings are a universal truth for all people in the universe. Some of the most brilliant people I know are drop dead gorgeous. 

I'm sorry I'm not phrasing things perfectly, all I'm trying to say is that, while I wish that I was what would be considered traditionally beautiful, in a way I'm glad I'm not. My insecurities have both hindered me and caused me to be observant and bookish. 

But let me restate that I do not think that attractiveness means that a person is unintelligent. That couldn't be further from the truth. 

Also, dear anon, I wasn't entirely sober when I wrote that poem thing (which not entirely sober me wrote and queued on Friday night). It doesn't clearly state what I was trying to say... 

[sittingintheoldgumtree]

This quarter is going to be a lot of work. 

I'm in Microeconomics, Financial Accounting, and Pre-Calculus (Yes, three math classes). 

I already have a mountain of homework, and I've been a bit of a recluse. I really hope that I can figure out how to balance my social life with my school work... This may entail forgoing sleep.