i felt inspired and decided to write about my favorite sethkate moments in all of dusk, get ready for the Pain Train as the queen of Killing Me would put it (hi mel!) hit the read more thingy if you enjoy being Dead and Gone (these aren’t in any type of order btw, i’m just writing things down as i go)
the jesus freak moment in 3x10 // when that happened, i wasn’t sure whether i should cry, scream or laugh. lemme explain this in words that you’ll understand (i hope).
the thing is they’re in the middle of the apocalypse, literally, as in all culebras are going to burn and bad stuff’s going to happen. got the picture? okay!
anyway, seth deliberately stops kate and scott to take care of her because he’s that Whipped for this girl. they should be running like hell to stop amaru and all the xibalban bullshit, yet seth being a worried puppy makes them stop and duct-tapes her (a Real Doctor)
then he starts being the Softest MF on the planet and makes fun of her taste for church boys and “Jesus freaks” as he put it.
and then you see the most genuine, beautiful smile spreading across his face, a smile we’ve only seen on seth when he’s around richie, which speaks Actual Volumes if you ask me! you see this man who doesn’t really express his feelings openly, except around his brother, and he’s making jokes in the middle of the Goddamn Apocalypse and he’s showing his beautiful, genuine smile which is usually reserved for richie and it brought out a lot of feelings in me.
i’ll stop here for the jesus freak moment otherwise i’ll still be there in six hours (i wish i was joking ha ha hA)
the ‘seth doesn’t know what personal space is” moment in 2x01 // i wish i was playing when i’m saying i was panting when this happened on my screen, that’s how intense that scene was to me.
first of all, we see this monumental shift in seth and kate’s relationship, they’ve gone from captor/captive, to forced “companions” (??? i don’t know), to actual partners in crime (not quite yet but eh, let’s pretend).
you see they’re a lot more comfortable around each other, kate calls seth out on his bullshit, he just casually starts stripping in the middle of an argument like it’s no biggie, btw kudos to kate for being so focused i admire that Talent
and then the moment happens, seth walks towards kate, kind of like a predator, i mean he’s all muscly and shit, i would be shitting myself but kate stands her ground, she is not budging and he looks at her with this softness in his eyes that literally only kate gets to see.
they don’t say anything but they’re standing soooooo close, too close to be casual but just too far to be full-on in each other’s faces and i’m not playing when i say i was panting, the sexual tension was through the goddamn roof.
i mean he could’ve easily rounded the table and avoided kate to grab his junkie shit but no!!! this little piece of shit plays with us and lowkey backs kate into the goddamn table and has me panting and i’m /just/ watching, filming that scene must’ve been sO intense
the torture scene in 3x07 // writing this is so weird i mean we’re talking about torture here but this scene showed some real emotion coming from both kate and seth, but mostly seth, through amaru, then through kate.
amaru pushes seth when she mentions the time he left kate because she knows damn well he feels guilty about it since she saw his soul, she knows how much he regrets ever leaving kate, how he thinks he’s responsible for her death and now for her being possessed by amaru, she knows all of this and she’s using it to piss him off.
but then seth pushes her too and he knows kate is in amaru, ready to fight and make an appearance so he uses that.
but the problem is amaru has been in seth’s head and she knows exactly how to hurt him, how to make him mad and she’s using his guilt against him because she knows how it’ll make him feel. and damn, she does it so well seth blows up in her face and yells in her face and he hurts her.
but he hurts kate too in the process and you can see guilt flash across his face and then you see him desperately trying to get kate to come back to him and he is so worried and god i have never seen seth look this soft and worried and heartbroken and it’s all because he unintentionally hurt kate.
he’s so desperate to keep her with him and then she tells him she doesn’t forgive him and seth just breaks down because in a way i think that’s what he was hoping for : redemption. for leaving her on the side of the road, for not sticking with her, for abandoning her, for letting her die and for letting her get possessed by amaru. all he really wanted was to be forgiven by kate but i also think he understood that she wouldn’t forgive him immediately because he did fuck up, majorly.
the heroin-induced dream about kate in 2x03 // this isn’t technically a sethkate moment because it didn’t happen irl but still, dreams come from somewhere and in this case, the dream came from seth’s mind, which means he must’ve been thinking about kate, about her coming back.
you see seth shooting up, his coping mechanism in the beginning of season 2, and then he dreams about kate, he dreams that she has come back for him, because he wants her to come back, he wants her to tell him all these things, that she couldn’t leave him after all, that she could never leave him. he regrets leaving her.
you see him laying there looking absolutely ecstatic because he’s convinced kate came back for him and she’s stroking his face and looking at him sweetly and she forgave him which is what he’s been hoping for.
and then it all comes crashing down and seth is left feeling confused and sad in a way because kate’s not really there with him.
kate’s last words before walking through the gate in 3x10 // so mANY FEELINGS
first of all: seth’s “kate, one more step and i pop your knees” shows just how much he doesn’t want to lose her again because he knows that she’s not going to change her mind, he knows that she will walk through the gate, that’s just who kate is and he knows this. so this is his last resort, his last chance to maybe, just maybe, keep her from walking away from him because he just got her back and he’s not ready to lose her.
then amaru threatening to kill scott and adding that she’ll kill seth too : i though that was interesting too because why would amaru mention seth and, in a way, make him equal to scott in kate’s eyes?
then you start to think about how amaru was in kate’s body and had access to her memories, to her thoughts and it clicks! amaru knows that kate has feelings for seth, she knows that he’s not just the guy who took her and her family, she knows that kate “got over” him leaving her on the side of the road back in s2.
then kate turns around and asks “but how could i not?” and she literally tells seth he turned a bunch of culebras and thieves into a gang of heroes, for her, she tells him this and it’s her way of telling him she forgives him for everything he’s done, she tells him he did the best he could with what he had but now she has to do her thing and leave, so the rest of them will be okay after all.
and god kate’s never been more selfless and heroic to me. she’s sacrificing her own life, right after getting it back, to save everyone and god i love her sO much, god bless kate fuller.
and finally the now iconic line : “in the eyes of the people i love” and this beautiful focus on seth’s face as he realizes that he’s one of those people, kate loves him, she LOVES him, despite what he’s done to her, to her family, in spite of everything, this girl he thought he had lost forever loves him, the thief, the criminal, the ex-junkie, the guy who abandoned her, she loves him and god he can’t believe he managed to get this lucky.
and he lowers his gun because he’s ready to let kate do her thing because he knows that’s what she needs to do. she has to walk through the gate because that’s what she wants and also because that’s his punishment for the things he has done : he gets to know kate forgave him and loves him but he has to lose her because that’s how fucked up his life is.
then she says “time to let go, partner” and you can hear me scream for mercy on my soul because gdi they’re beautiful and seth losing kate is breaking my poor little heart
and this mf just drops his gun when amaru turns towards him because he gives up, he tried his best but he lost his brother and now kate, so he’s ready to die because he doesn’t want to live in a world that doesn’t have kate and richie in it. and think about it, he still fought before losing kate even though he had lost richie already, but the second both of them are gone, he completely shuts down and is ready to die because damn he loves them so much he can’t live without them.
and that’s the story of how sethkate fucked up my life!!!
bonus: i tried so hard to only use one scene from 3x10 but i couldn’t resist, that episode was actual sethkate heaven and is Holy to me, let it be known to all that i have watched this episode way too many times and I Regret Nothing
+ i’m sorry this meta was sO long i just have a lot of feelings okay!!! feel free to reply to this i am always down to have a melt down (my life motto)