we don’t feel like we can ever ask for the level of care we so deeply crave from future partners because we feel like it’s too much. we’re so disabled, so lacking in resources, so needing of help. to even put some of that on anyone feels like far too much to ask. we don’t trust people to accept it because it’s genuinely what they want; we don’t trust people to mind their own limits; we don’t trust people to not resent us for the level of care we ask for.
safer to just not, ever. safer to isolate.















