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09/03/1992-04/19/2016

☝🏼the dates that were ALMOST written underneath my name in stone.

#skystrayed #sky’s bandages #skydiary #overdose #heroin #drug overdose #narcan

I’m pretty positive that there will always be a part of me who likes punk music, and my nails painted black, and can’t look at a razor blade for only its face value- there’ll always be more; but I’ll keep you my dirty little secret.

#Sky says #skystrayed #skydiary

Cow is our Copilot (we’re still in Florida) ✨🌪✨ #stormchasing #stormchaser #OzorBust @chriskridler #SkyDiary https://www.instagram.com/p/BxctonpnLiD/?igshid=1g61usiozoctx

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#skydiary #nofilter #beforesunset

#beforesunset #nofilter #skydiary

I'm not perfect; in fact, I'm on the opposite side of the spectrum. I've struggled with my various mental illnesses since middle school, maybe even before. I've attempted suicide a couple times and thought about and planned it out many, many more times. I've self-harmed in the form of cutting in an attempt to silence the monster that lives within me. I've used drugs to numb the mental and emotional pain. I became a full blown heroin junkie. I overdosed and was told by the doctor and police officer that I was "extremely lucky" and that I "didn't almost die, I did die." I sure didn't feel lucky at all at the time. Not long after that I traded in my heroin so that I'd have more time with meth- the meth that I first tried in order to lose weight faster. And not very long after that- I found out I was pregnant. I lived in denial for basically the first half of my pregnancy. And then I woke up. Something inside me told me that although this baby was far from planned, this was no accident. I overdosed and should have died that day, but for reasons unknown to me at the time, God saved me, he kept me alive. Within a month after my overdose, I had become pregnant.... and when all of that clicked inside my head- I knew that God had kept me alive for a reason, and when I didn't care enough about my own life to take recovery and life in general seriously- he gave me something (or rather, someone) to care about. God gave me my reason for living, my purpose in life, my angel, my baby, my RayRay of sunshine.

Without my daughter, I don't doubt that I would be dead by now, and if not, I'd likely be in jail, prison, living in a trap house, or on the streets. Some may say that I saved my daughter's life the day that I chose to keep her and not to get an abortion; but the truth is: she's the one that saved my life that day, and every day since then.

#skydiary #personal #mydaughterismyhero