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Leo tilted his head to the side, already struggling to find enough answers, “I thought of five already... do these have to be different?” He gave a small sigh which slowly gave way to a smile.
Eyes: What has changed from how you see the world now and how you saw it 5 years ago?
Five years ago René was actually asleep. Driven to slumber by loneliness, emptiness and a sheer unwillingness to exist, the world is now MASSIVELY different’t to how it was. He now has love, friends and a reason to be. Sure he still has his hardships and heartache, some things he would like to be different, but it is that struggle, the ups and downs that make his (un)life worth continuing, whereas before it was just a continuation of nothingness...
Nose: What is your favourite scent?
I can’t really mention one person’s scent because that would make others feel left out - so I will say that the underlying scent that he loves and always has, is fear. Especially when it’s a jolt, that causes a spike in adrenaline - delicious!
Mouth: How much do you lie?
René doesn’t so much lie, as give half truths or neglect to say something. Lying, is not a gentlemanly thing to do, but also he has a lot of worries that impact how much truth he can give. He’s a very private person and doesn’t enjoy giving over everything.
Heart: How do you deal with heartbreak?
NOT WELL! Anyone who knows his story, knows that the one person to truly break his heart into a thousand pieces was his maker, and he has never recovered. It impacts on everything he does. He has legit daddy issues. It causes him to have these dysfunctional relationships, pull people in to him but then he can never fully give himself over and in a way their anger and frustration at that feeds this idea that he has, that he isn’t good enough. He feeds his own self-worth with his ego, but it’s a front that is backed up by a lot of self degradation and years of hurt that were never properly dealt with because he’s a vampire and they all got their shit going on! You can’t be a vampire and be happy and balanced, it’s a catch 22 - live forever but with these crippling emotional problems xD yay! (they aint called the damned for no reason!)
Hips: Is there anything you over indulge yourself with?
It’s a weird one, but I would say he over indulges in reactions from people. He says things to push people’s buttons and sometimes their reactions aren’t nice, and they don’t aid him in anyway - but he does it because... because he’s René?!?
“Don’t you dare run away from this! Everything was just starting to get good for us and now you wanna turn your back?!” - Susanoo
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At those words, Leo paused. He was halfway to the door, hand outstretched just so, to leave. But at those words, he couldn’t move enough step. His back was to the other, refusing to look at him. Running away? He was not running from anything. It was Susanoo who would not run away, who he could not push away like everyone else. he had tried. And maybe this was the final straw, the last string snapping mid-motion, the last resort. It would only take one small turn of phrases to throw those words right back at him. To make him run screaming and never look back. But he couldn’t say them. How could he? The better things became, the greater the fall in the end. And Leo had fallen so many times that he wasn’t sure he’d survive another descent.
“Is that what you think?” he said quietly. “This is nothing to do with... running away. I am not giving up. This is the only thing I can do. Please don’t stop me.”
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Susanoo smirked, answering to the kiss with a bit softer answer but did not fail in the passion himself. Sighing as the kiss ended, and gripping the males shirt. “Let’s continue this hello, no?”
Lay nodded slowly. “Mhmm.... yes lets do.”he mumbled softly leaning in to kiss the other softly nibbling on the other’s lips gently. “May I know your name?” Lay asked softly as he pulled away and looking at the other licking along his lips gently.
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my pen cannot move over this page fast enough damned be punctuation and anything that will hinder me from capturing my winged thoughts and aligning them perfectly here and nowhe smelled like the west winds and fresh salt, like a rain that won't ever reach the shore and his face was carved from the whitewater marbel of the frozen seas. he looked upon me and i felt blessed, heart anew on fate's twisted path. there are only a handful of lords with his power, only the maidens of highest privilege were invited to the divine-realm as courtesans, ladies-in-waiting, and oracles. my own father had such hopes for me, but not he nor the entire pacific would believe that i looked into the twin jewels of a god. it was momentary for i could not look upon his eyes and not see myself as well.what he must think of a creature like me carrying her own limbs as if they were some sort of luggage to be had. that i was born in his holy waters as even a fragment of his visage and then sacrificed it all-- well, i cannot dispair. after all, this almighty one has also made himself home among humans and animals alike. surely, he found some merit in the mortals as well. my body already feels lighter at this revelation.
how my muse clicked with yours : immediately┆almost right away┆slowly┆after several interactions┆they haven’t (yet.)a thought my muse has about yours : Sangwoo is someone Jay would enjoy spending time with or get easily irritated with. Because of their personalities being completely opposite, it might create room for a possible friendship or some quarrel. His eyes and height are two things Jay would be envious of.a strange thought my muse has about yours : --a thread/plot i’d like for our muses : Not sure yet, since I just took a brief look at the bio but-- something related to his power would be nice. I rarely get a chance to try with supernatural threads.
x♪♩♫ Does music inspire your muse? What's one song on your playlist that reminds you of your muse?
The songs I have on my main blog, her about page, the contact page, the relationships page (which I need to update lol no longer speaking to Anthem), and the Balah page are all songs that inspire me for Vartouhi. The one on my blog because it sounds delicate, dainty... but it also sounds sad, unsure of itself. There are little parts of it where it seems to be enduring and hopeful. It’s also very romantic; I’m a sucker for romance even tho that’s not the focus of this muse. I still like that it’s got that element to it. And then somehow, coupled with the mobile banner I have and pink-haired Sunmi’s look, it just makes me think of her flying in the starry sky over that mountain, wishing she could fly back home.
The one on her about comes from my favorite videogame. It’s when you’re following a mysterious entity, and when you finally meet her. It makes me think of a human stumbling upon her doing something very non-human or just odd in general. It gives a sense of wonder and fantasy. It’s delicate and pretty as well... As you can tell, I’m trying to brainwash people into considering her pretty lmao. And it sounds foreign! Which she is, so yes.
The one on her contact page is from Outlaw Star, which is an anime set in space and has a lot of space travel and aliens involved. It’s the first Japanese song I ever learned to sing. It makes me think of her trudging through her daily obstacles while living on Earth, enduring the hardships, having hope that she will return home, finding comfort in the people she’s come to love on Earth, and the chorus sort of makes me think of her flying through the sky happily.
The relationships page’s song is from Final Fantasy X. It’s called To Zanarkand, and it plays at this point that’s very sad. Specifically I was thinking about how Tidus and Yuna (the lovers and main characters) sort of know they’re going to be separated. It reminds me of how Touhi is separated from her home, and how she’s separated herself from the idea of being able to fall in love and actually have a relationship like that with someone. (Because of her batshit crazy fiance basically threatening to kill anyone who touches his things.) There’s a part where it sounds like it’s going back and forth from gaining strength to losing it. Which you know, makes sense with her and her insecurity.
The Balah page’s song comes from Final Fantasy Crystal Chronicles... I can’t remember what it’s called. I’m pretty sure it’s just a town’s song though, and the whole look of that game sort of reminds me of Balah. The foreign sort of sound to it I liked. And that it sounds sort of rustic? Since Balah is a very nature-oriented place.
☹ What's a character that you refuse to play with? Why?
Ah... I don’t think I’d refuse to play with a specific sort of character. I’m always interested in seeing where things go. I actually really don’t like being limited; I can’t do closed rps because of that. When I say plots like “Oh she can be an older sister figure to Touhi”... I mean, at the start, and if it continues like that, then awesome... but if things regress or progress, that’s fine too. When people stress to me over and over “They’re friends” when we talk ooc about our muses, especially when our muses have chemistry, I feel offended. I’m not going to force a ship on you. It’s insulting that you’d even feel like you have to emphasize the platonic friendship thing. I’ll probably get disinterested in rping with you if you do that. Also if you seem like, so adamantly set on x type of muse for your character to r/s with. Not because I think your muse should r/s with Touhi, but it pisses me off when I hear someone say “Well because he’s the way he is, I think he could only really fall for a male that’s dominant enough...” or whatever the fuck. Fuck you. Women can be dominant too. Dominant doesn’t fucking mean bending you over a table and sticking a phallus in you and calling you a whore and fucking you until your goddamn asshole tears. It means you take charge. Think fucking dominant gene, people. The genes aren’t fucking; it’s just that one takes charge over the trait. And I would fucking know because I’m a dominant personality. So fuck you and your gender bias, and your shitty perception of females and gender roles. I’m so sick of female muses being treated badly that I will not want to rp with you if you tell me shit like that. Keep it to yourself if you want me to remain under the illusion that you’re the kind of person I click with. If you have a problem with that, unfollow.
❤ Have you or are you currently in love?
Haaaaaaaaaaa no. From a very young age I’ve known my life is going to be overseas in Korea or Japan. For the love of God if you assume weeaboo/koreaboo over that alone fucking unfollow right now. I want to do concept design in videogames, you cocksuckers, and the genres I prefer/my art style fits with come mainly from those two countries. ...Altho Naughty Dog is dream company. Jak and Daxter series. The Last of Us. Ugly sobs For the past years I haven’t felt the point in dating if I’m going away. My mom had dreams to be a fashion designer that she gave up to get married and settle down. As much as I’m glad she did since I love my family, and as happy as she is with the life she has, I don’t want to do that. If my future brings me back to America, that’s fine. But I don’t want to miss the opportunity to go where my heart has told me to for many years.