You know for the longest time I have avoided doing particular things because of my appearance, my weight, etc. I have been in places where I am quite literally afraid to leave the house, scared to show people an inch of my flesh incase they pass silent judgment. I still sometimes face these hurdles every single day, I can't look at myself in full length mirrors properly, I refuse to catch my reflection when I'm having a bad day, I take hours getting ready because I want to look absolutely perfect, and then after all of that, I cancel plans. I hide from others eyes, I stay away from crowds, and away from people because I don't want them to look at me. Then there comes a time when tiny voices start encouraging you, and you start realising; "hey! I said that", and "that was my voice!" I have girls telling me all the time, "Charlie, I wish I had the balls to do what you do!" Well do it! You don't need to lose weight to pole dance, you don't need to be skinny, or to eat differently, or to even have a decent set of heels or shorts! Pole has been the biggest life saver for me this year, it has been a solid start to my #BOPO journey, and thank God! I have come from pit of pits with my body image and self esteem all around, and although I'm not even halfway there to what some would say a "full recovery" - #ImTrying and I feel SO much more incredible for just doing it. Every day, just once, say something positive about yourself. Make a small tally of how many positives and how many negatives you give to yourself and start realising you'll never hate yourself into loving yourself. It is not your responsibility to be beautiful. You are not alive for that purpose. Your existence is not dependent on how desirable somebody finds you. Love you for you. Tldr: do whatever the hell you want and don't let your demons tell you otherwise. #BOPO #chooselifewarrior #ImTrying #Journey #SlayTheSlate #LoveYourBody #PoleFitness #NoTNoShade #IfYouCantLoveYourselfHowInTheHellYouGonnaLoveSomebodyElse #BodyPositive #BodyPositivity #BDD #BodyConfidence #BodyDysmorphicDisorderRecovery #BDDRecovery #EDRecovery #ProRecovery #EDFam #EDWarrior #EDSoldier #EDFighter
