May 21, 2025
I would give my soul for a part 2 with either Prowl and/or Screamer’s reaction to the “weird cows”.
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I would give my soul for a part 2 with either Prowl and/or Screamer’s reaction to the “weird cows”.
[Previously]
wretched sleep schedule update: held out to around 10pm (awake for a total of 30 hours) and now it's 5 in the morning and i'm contemplating going back to sleep for another hour or two
Not even entirely sure what this ramble IS about but I do gotta share it
But the realization and awareness that I have - for at least the past like two years and increasing in frequency - been experiencing a lot of paradoxical sleep is just such a fucking interesting experience and a thing I'm DEFINITELY exploiting cause like, I've very much kind of just found a way to basically fall asleep in literally less than 2 minutes and actually go into REM stupid fast while still being conscious / lucid w/out dreaming and its so fucking wild.
But like I've been doing little self experiments of observation with it and like the other day I was like "Aight Im tired, Imma give myself fifteen minutes" and in 8 minutes got the whole fucking "cat nap" feel of shit while still being aware of like the general passage of time albeit at like 2x speed and I was in the plane today and Im like "dude I literally felt my body turn off what the fuck this is kind of fucking cool" plus also me going "Okay so I lost the ability to dissociate to take a break from existing with recovery but INSTEAD I've unlocked Sleep Hax"
Cause Im like HOLD UP
When I get REALLY deep into my thoughts and just rest my eyes and I SWEAR to GOD Im literally awake but I am OBVIOUSLY externally asleep, that is ACTUALLY sleeping and that is ACTUALLY going into REM and part of why I retain that sense of being awake is cause my brain goes into REM stupid fast
And so Im just like bro bro bro
I can go from not being able to nap in the day time to being the MASTER napper while just engaging in my deep thought?
AND THE FUNNIEST THING
IM LIKE THIS IS LIKE LUCID DREAMING WITH NO DREAMS IS THAT A THING
I LOOK IT UP
LIKE
HELLO HOW DID BUDDHISM COME UP AT ME AGAIN
Like its NOT clear light sleep as I experience it but Im like man its like Im lucid dreaming but with no dream i wonder if that is a thing But dude like of course cause I've always made myself my own guinea pig and shit I'm just taking this weird thing about me and testing where I can go with and its fucking wild to have no dream but be "ah, I'm asleep, I should proabbly wake up in a bit" and actually like tuning into senses through the sleep like muting of it all to just keep track of time while asleep its SO weird but kinda fun
Cause I can hear everything still but I am still asleep and if I choose to actually pay attention to the muted auditory stuff I can process shit Im hearing while Im asleep and its so wild Its like my self science experiment of the past few weeks XD I do though wonder if there is a relationship between this and Buddhism cause I will say... Its timing was around when I started getting really into Buddhism and its gotten more the more I get into it so Im like... Maybe there is a side effect of doing a lot of mindfulness, observation, meditation shit hmmm Something something regular and frequent practice of simply observing and engaging in deep but present thought sets the base line for both being able to relax and quickly fall asleep while still engaging in said thought AND observation soemthing something It's something I do have to look into cause its fucking interesting And I have talked about it to my doctor and as long as I'm feeling rested in my sleep, particularly night sleep, and Im not falling asleep suddenly, its NOT a medical issue
it’s midnight & I still can’t sleep & want to smoke soooo bad even tho my tolerance is still too high so it’s just a waste of more weed :((( I really don’t want to take sleep aids every night but this is fucking ridiculous man why won’t my body just turn OFF
squad i need to start going to bed earlier on weekends because the way that going to sleep at 1am for three days straight ruins my sunday night into monday sleepy plans,,,,,
No
perhaps.... jetfire angst? 👀
Sure, here's a little follow up to the "Starscream needs sleep" series comprising of [this post] and [this post].
What if he like, doesn't like to recharge with them because he sometimes cries in his sleep and it's embarrassing :(
he's trying