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1:Talk about the first time you watched your favorite movie.
one of my favorite movies is Spirited Away and i remember watching it for the first time really really late at night in my room when i was still in elementary school. i would always watch the toonami stuff at night since i couldn’t sleep and that was something that came on and i really fell in love with the story so naturally every time toonami played it i watched it
2:Talk about your first kiss.
okay my first kiss was actually with a girl many years ago (well two girls but the other was a dare so i don’t count either sO WE’LL GO WITH A LEGIT ONE). my first kiss was actually with my current boyfriend (who is also my first) and it was on our second “date” and we were standing on a dock in the park that’s just in my town and i was really shy and nervous and i kept my eyes down and he literally had to pull my face up to kiss me because i had no clue what i was doing
3:Talk about the person you’ve had the most intense romantic feelings for.
….*long sigh*. i see home when i look at him, i see the ocean in his eyes and the glow of the sun just seems to radiate off his body, the literal embodiment of california itself. his blonde hair curls loosely around my fingers when i run my fingers through it, he has this cheesy smile that’s contagious and lights up a room. his scent is sweet like and every now and then i’ll feel it dance across my senses as if a nostalgic breeze crosses my path. every time i think of him, my heart flutters and i get a rush of longing, a warm longing, but still longing. he’s is everything that i want, but i can’t have. i could go on and on for days on end just talking about him and only him, but i should stop before i make myself even more sad.
4:Talk about the thing you regret most so far.
there are many things i regret, a lot of missed opportunities and chances that i wish i had taken, but i regret everyone i’ve hurt because of the type of person i am. i never mean to hurt anyone, but it just kind of happens.
5:Talk about the best birthday you’ve had.
i can’t really think of a /best/ birthday per say but i’ve had some really cool ones growing up. like i had a lady who could make balloon animals come when i was i think seven to make stuff for all of my friends and i. pretty sure i was the coolest kid on the block then B] i also had a build-a-bear party bEFORE IT WAS THE COOL THING TO DO
6:Talk about the worst birthday you’ve had.
lmao the worst birthday i’ve ever had was probably my 18th actually because we didn’t do what i had wanted (which was go out to eat with my boyfriend because he offered to take my whole family out) but that didn’t happen and i just did not care the rest of the day.
7:Talk about your biggest insecurity.
lmao which one? but honestly my biggest insecurity is my weight, or how i view myself i should say. because i’m not overweight, i’m actually the average weight for my age and height, but because of how my body is proportioned (i have thicker legs and a smaller upper body) i feel like i’m much bigger than i actually am and i hate that my calves are so fucking big like i just want thinner legs is that too much to ask? my thighs are alright though they could be a little thinner buT IT’S SERIOUSLY MY CALVES THAT REALLY SCREW ME
8:Talk about the thing you are most proud of.
even though i’m not really good or anything, i’m really proud that i can draw decently well. i’m proud to have a natural art talent that even though i don’t do much to improve, i’m glad i still have it
9:Talk about little things on your body that you like the most.
i really like the freckles and moles i have they’re just so cute especially the one on my butt. i also really like the blue/gray color of my eyes. i get complimented on them a lot ;v;
10:Talk about the biggest fight you’ve ever had.
the biggest fight i’ve ever had was with my boyfriend when i came home from summer and i’m not gonna go into detail about it.
11:Talk about the best dream you’ve ever had.
this is a dream that i had several months ago but it is still pretty clear. it was like a scene from mario level it felt like, crossed with a golf course i don’t know really. and i was with /him/ and he was dressed up in nice black slacks, a white tucked in shirt and a neat black tie. we were walking around that area, up and down the strange hills and spending time together. at some point i also met up with my sister and dad and walking through some run down apartments but that’s just a side part of the dream. but he and i did have to separate when i ran into my boyfriend, who was strangely enough dressed the same way, and i had to go with him instead. and we and several other faceless boys who were dressed ALL THE SAME AND I DON’T KNOW WHY were being lectured by some guy and then i saw /him/ again and he signaled for us to get out of there. so i snuck away and we were together again and like i don’t know that dream just made me feel really wanted by him, even if it was my own subconscious but giving me what i want
12:Talk about the worst dream you’ve ever had.
the worst dream i ever had was probably….something i don’t remember/chose to block out. whenever i get a nightmare i try not to think about it or remember it at all so eheh i don’t have much to say here.
13:Talk about the first time you had sex/how you imagine your first time.
tmi shit here. so my first time sucked a lot and it was on the bedroom floor because the bed was really squeaky. it was uncomfortable and i wasn’t even fully naked so there’s that
14:Talk about a vacation.
i don’t go on vacations like i used to but when i lived in california we would go out pretty often and my favorite place to visit was catalina island. the last time we went we stayed in a cute little apartment that i don’t think had a microwave so we had to hunt down a corner store and we got a box of mac n cheese to cook on the stove WHICH TOOK A FUCKING HOUR TO COOK. and my sibling and i had to sleep on a couch/pullout bed it was fucking uncomfortable. our sister and mom got actual beds what assholes. but we went parasailing and explored the island both in water and on land. we followed sharks on a tour boat and swam in the ocean with the fish and i just love going there, i really would love to visit again.
15:Talk about the time you were most content in life.
this last summer at my sister’s house was actually the most content/happiest i have been in a long time. it wasn’t a particular moment, it was just most of the visit where i could relax and do pretty much whatever the hell i wanted.
16:Talk about the best party you’ve ever been to.
i’ve never been to a party party so i guess there isn’t a best one
17:Talk about someone you want to be friends with.
i want to be better friends with some people i met over summer but they’re busy with jobs and shit and the time difference doesn’t help. but they’re all really cool people, pretty chill and are just pretty much going through life
18:Talk about something that happened in elementary school.
ah elementary school. i really enjoyed my first elementary school like we did a lot of fun things there. i can’t remember a particular moment but i remember we did olympic day at the end of each year aND I FUCKING WRECKED SHIT UP LIKE BAM BLUE RIBBONS ACROSS THE BOARD and now i’m a lazy fuck that can’t athletic
19:Talk about something that happened in middle school.
OKAY FUCK MIDDLE SCHOOL THAT WAS A SHIT OF A PLACE FUCK MIDDLE SCHOOL. but okay uh OH i remember my friend got her period for the first time and was like “Kierraaaa help me i don’t know what to do i’m bleeding come with me to tell a teacher///” and we were like panicking and i had to get her to the nurse so she could get a pad it was pretty eventful
20:Talk about something that happened in high school.
HIGH SCHOOL HAS A LOT OF SHIT HAPPEN. but we’ll go with senior year. literally on the first day of school, first period my ap bio teacher told us the harrowing tale of “penis boy” and his struggles with drawing penises and having one shaved into his head. literally this story set up our entire year and established the type of person our teacher was and to this day she is still my favorite fucking teacher
21:Talk about a time you had to turn someone down.
it was freshman year, i was in PE, and we had just come back in from doing our mile for the nine weeks and it was block scheduling for whatever reason so we had to be in class longer. and apparently this guy who had a thing for me for idk how long was kinda flirting or whatever and his friend in the middle of class just kinda shouted out “hey would you date him??” and i was just awkwardly like “…no?..” it was weird and that was my “pls leave me alone” phase for all boys
22:Talk about your worst fear.
i have a really big fear of loneliness as in i have no one to turn to, i have no one to listen, no one to confide in. just having no one be there for me
23:Talk about a time someone turned you down.
okay i never approached someone trying to get a date or whatever before but in sixth grade my friend told the guy i had a crush on that i liked him and he was just like “oh..” and never looked at me so does that count?
24:Talk about something someone told you that meant a lot.
whenever someone i consider a good/best friend tells me they feel the same and i know they really mean it it honestly makes me so happy, because i get paranoid and think that no one considers me their best friend and to hear someone tell me that just makes me really happy
25:Talk about an ex-best friend.
there was a girl i used to be friends with back in 8th grade, and we started out hating one another for a dumb reason but then we kinda became really close somehow. like really close like we hung out all the time and we told each other everything and we were just two peas in a pod. well she started to change as the school year was coming to an end and the person she was becoming was just someone that i didn’t want to be friends with. we had a falling out over it and we didn’t talk again until partway into freshman year where we made up but then she moved and we just drifted apart and now we don’t talk at all.
26:Talk about things you do when you’re sick.
i literally lay in bed and play video games and sleep. also i wander throughout the house just kinda doing nothing so i’m not sitting in bed all day
27:Talk about your favorite part of someone else’s body.
i love that mole /he/ has right below his belly button. and the tattoo on his left forearm in honor of his family. and my best friend has a mole by her eye and it’s just precious.
28:Talk about your fetishes.
i-i don’t really think i have a fetish?? i’ve never really been like sure about what counts as a fetish so i’m going with i don’t have any?
29:Talk about what turns you on.
hickeys hickeys hickeys hickeys hickeys hickeys hickeys hickeys hickeys hickeys hickeys hickeys hickeys hickeys hickeys hickeys hickeys hickeys and if you grab my butt ur in the clear buck-o
30:Talk about what turns you off.
being ignored is a pretty fucking big one. i’ve been ignored for a good part of my life and if you’re someone i care about or am interested in and you pull that i’ll be 10000% done
31:Talk about what you think death is like.
i think death is quiet, that it’s peaceful and that any pain that was felt goes away. that you live on in your memories and whatever you believe happens to you after death
32:Talk about a place you remember from your childhood.
a place that i honestly remember the most from my childhood is my best friend’s house because i was there all the time basically. even to this day whenever i visit her over summer it’s my second home. i remember always getting this same small cut on my knee every time i went to her house, in the same place, and i would always notice it at dinner. i still have a very faint scar from that cut
33:Talk about what you do when you are sad.
when i’m sad i listen to music and just kind of get lost in my own thoughts. i end up thinking a lot and i just don’t talk much.
34:Talk about the worst physical pain you’ve endured.
i haven’t really endured any really bad pain so i guess the worst pain i ever felt was getting some of my cartilage piercings done. i have a low pain tolerance which is gr8 btw so having a needle shoved through my ear for my forward helix and rook was FUCKING TERRIBLE
35:Talk about things you wish you could stop doing.
i wish i could stop eating certain foods, that i could stop being such a pushover, that i could stop trying for people who aren’t reciprocating.
36:Talk about your guilty pleasures.
my guilty pleasures are primarily dumb pop music that they play constantly on the radio. i’ll belt the heck out of those songs
37:Talk about someone you thought you were in love with.
i never thought i was in love with someone, but i think i am currently
38:Talk about songs that remind you of certain people.
any twenty one pilots song reminds me of /him/ and my babe chase, dubstep (or whatever the hell it is he listens to) and really fucking weird songs reminds me of my bby lizz, any bruno mars song reminds me of my boyfriend, songs from anime remind me of my moseph, and well yeah. I’M BAD AT CERTAIN SONGS
39:Talk about things you wish you’d known earlier.
i wish i had known how complicated growing up really was and how complex certain emotions are. and i wish i had known how to act when i moved to texas so i would’ve fit in better, rather than spend several months alone with no friends and no one to talk to
40:Talk about the end of something in your life.
the end of my time in california happened when i was 10 when we moved to texas, where everything was so much different and the culture was so foreign to me. it was the end of who i used to be and the shutting away of certain traits and things i enjoyed just so i could fit in somewhat. even then it didn’t work, but it was the end of my extroverted personality and the introduction of my introverted one.