#smiley rambles

[staylovesmiley]

Will yall be super mad at me if Chan doesn’t grovel as much as you were all hoping he would in Escape-….

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Just spewing words here, but hear me out-

Imagine an alternate universe where Kusuo didn't immediately shapeshift into a boy after being born, and he grows up, experiencing life as a girl.

As he grows older, the more he feels that sinking feeling in his gut that something is wrong with him. He learns to ignore it and brushes it aside, just attributing the feeling to his powers.

Then Kusuke gives him the power eraser, and he gets really excited, not just at the prospect of being free of his abilities, but also that deep, insatiable feeling that there is something wrong. But then he uses it, and his powers are gone, but that feeling is still there.

It isn't fair. He was normal now. He's supposed to feel normal, too.

And then his powers come back, and he accepts them, and he hopes and prays that maybe that feeling was just self-loathing that he can now begin to move past. But no. The feeling still never leaves.

After everything that's happened, he's begun to be a bit more open, so he tries talking to someone. Be it one of his friends, or mayybe Kusuke? And after a lot of coaxing to get more information (cause of course he would still hold in most of it, trying to get answers with the bare minimum) that person is able to decipher his poor explanation of his feelings to be dysphoria, and help him research and experiment, and finally, finally, he feels right.

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I am politely asking you to infodump about Sniper. This is not a threat.

Ok

Sniper is heavily based on Jinx/Powder; he was considered the ‘runt of the litter’, was never allowed to go on missions by himself, was usually the one to get him and his sibs in trouble, and he was overall, what we know as: a major pussy.

Him and his other two siblings ,Turret and Pistol, were the first copies in the WPNZ line, and they all were designed with special abilities:

WPNZ SD: 002 - PISTOL UNIT - SA (special ability): Poison /// equipped with dozens of venomous and toxic materials

WPNZ SD: 003 - TURRET UNIT - SA (special ability): Hacker /// designed to hijack complex computer programs, can link itself directly to, and take control of security systems with relative ease.

WPNZ SD: 004 - SNIPER UNIT - SA (special ability): Cloak /// equipped with cloaking devices to disguise itself and/or appear invisible. Is also able to replicate other voices and change size to enhance this ability*

*The Sniper unit has been proven unable to perform this ability with full success and is considered faulty. It is advised to not send this unit alone until our biomechanics doctor has sorted this issue.

He was often teased, especially by his siblings for this, and his general clumsiness.

He was really desperate to prove him self though, so desperate that he disobeyed orders by Wpnz when he wasn’t supposed to, which got his siblings killed. When Wpnz found out what he did, he became livid. He hurt Sniper and threatened to kill him if he ever saw him again. (wpnz later grew to regret this)

He lived in hiding from his brother for a majority of his life, mostly living in isolation within the sewers, learning how to live on his own, and become a proper assassin. And after years of forcing it, his special ability finally improved. This, naturally, made him kind of fucking insane. he became even more blood thirsty than all of his siblings, he’s kind of like Wpnz at his worst; if he let himself go.

But as much as he is a foil to Wpnz, I like to think of him as a foil to Mr Puzzles as well.

He too is desperate to fix his mistake even by batshit insane means, however, both Puzzles and Wpnz are bad people who decide to improve from their mistakes, Whereas Sniper was an innocent person who got worse from his. And he only gets worse.

[staylovesmiley]

If my outfit for the Hannah Bahng concert Thursday turns out as cute as it is in my head I’ll post a fit check~ cause there have GOT to be some blues in my followers I just know it cause you guys must be as angsty as me considering you like my writing lol

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I know I’ve said this before but I guess it needs to be said again…

I do not add ageless blogs to my taglists.

I am an 18+ blog and if I am tagging your blog on my post when you do not have a clear age indicator on your blog then that looks bad on me as an 18+ creator.

If you don’t have your age, birth year, or something clearly indicating that you are 18+ then please do not ask to be on my taglists.

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I’m sorry for the silence lately I am working on a couple of things (next chapter of Escape is one of the things but I’m feeling stuck on it so I’m also working on two other things~)

But hopefully I’ll be getting something out soon~

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I think the only reason I would ever want to be famous is to be perceived tbh- like I would be LURKING in my own fandom, watching edits and reading fanfics wanting to know how people see me and assume what I’m like ya know?? Im nosy-

Also to flirt with fans and feed the parabsocialism for sure I know that’s so unhealthy but I’d be as delusional as my fans tbh like think Chan and Hyunjin but like WORSE hehehe these are also the reasons why I COULDN’T be famous I would get in so much trouble with my company cause like wdym I have to be subtle when flirting with fans?? also also I would sooooo add flame to ships if I was in a group. If I read a fic of me with another member I would conspire with them to drive the fans crazy and be extra fruity with them just for fun but aaalllsssooooo a lil gay fr fr

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Polycule anecdote of the day; I just made a double sided PC of myself and my partner to gift to their partner for Christmas in a double sided PC holder I had laying around that has a girly side and then a darker side cause that’s mine and my partner’s aesthetics~