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Making a wasp photo study and I can't get over how freaking Beautiful bug's are, the way their plates lock in together, the geometry of it, the fine-tuned propositions, so delicate yet sturdy. aahhh

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Hey y'all, I hope you're having a safe pride month this year!

For this occasion I thought I'd ask, if you're feeling generous, a little financial help to make the war time life of an enby artist with chronic nerve pain a bit easier :P

Absolutely nothing urgent, but my partner is having his top surgery in the end of the month (yay!) and we have Barely enough to cover the travel and recovery expenses. Either way things will be fine, but it would make the order a lot less strssy with slightly more to spare ><

my payp adress is [email protected]

Regardless, I wish all of my fellow queers a very nice time, I hope whatever it is you're going through right now inmproves, and that you will have the support you need to follow your most fulfilling life 💜

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The new wave of system-positivity is very nice to see, but I also have a very odd personal feeling about it, kinda cheering from the sidelines, bc I'm pretty sure I Was plural at some point in my life (most of my pre-teens, teens) but I just. Stopped? I still feel the seams, but I Feel whole, and not a mesh of parts with their own feelings anymore. They had names and stories which were of personal experience, yet now are purely fiction to me. Kinda sad I didn't have the information and encouragements of today back than. It feels strange.

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sometimes I think abt how cool trans women are my head explodes ><

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Actually can't get over how lazy ppl who "bro" and "dude" and "guy" everyone are. Let me help youuuu

sis : lawful and nice

babe : neutral, may be sassy

buddy/bud : versatile

pal : perfect universal substitute

bitch : if ur feelin edgy idk

dudette : bold and swagful

friend : whimsy and piece

hon : mmmm

mate : interesting

thang : in specific contexts (exmp. "little thang)

comrade : lmao

and these are sust some I remembered in under 5 min.

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it's sooo weird being on the western web seeing "communists" and "anarchists" getting along and being a practically homogenous community while historically the former consistently backstabbed the latter and had meaningfully distinct ideologies :/

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I'm still completely baffled how far a little bit of chemical intervention can go for even a mild depression. Like, you don't rly realize how much joy you were missing. Now I FEEEL happy from things like my bus being on time, seeing a pretty art, a cool comic, just Knowing my friend is having something cool going on, having a tasty dinner, Finishing My Chores!! Do ppl usually feel like that? Is joy a regular part of existence I have been missing out on for years, forcing myself into things just to squeeze an ounce of seratonin out of my ill neuron organ? holy smokes.

I was also apparently chronically anxious for years and I was so used to it I didn't fucking know? So apparently I am not a useless coward who physically can't approach people and situations or needs to pulled with avery atom of my being by the skin of my teeth to do shit like Striking A Convo, I was actually just fucking ill. Neat.

Again it's not really that I didn't know I had depression and anxiety it's more so the realization of just how big a difference some meds can make. And the stuff I take is like dirt cheap too! And the dose I needed is actually really low too. Incredible.

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I think I don't even want to date women I just want to be around and stroll in sometimes to make a pethetic meow and they go "oww" and pet me for a few minutes before returning to their business but still appreciating my presence as I appreciate their <3