i think Flame is someone whos actually normal. In the sense that he goes (tries) to sleep at a normal hour, wakes up early, actually feeds himself properly unlike somebody (Wemmbu) and has a day to day routine.
Like this dude wakes up early in the morning, makes himself food, makes Ashen food, and goes to do productive shit he had planned beforehand. Runs errands like a normal person would. I feel like thats rare in the PVPer space.
To me, most PVPers on the server live by surviving, rarely make proper bases that theyre planning on staying in long-term, rarely feed themselves something other than gaps or golden carrots, rarely manage to sleep early and always wake themselves up after like 3 hours of sleep.
Wemm is the most like that, them having way too many expiriences that made them turn out this way. Whenever they get the chance to— they probably sleep until like fucking 4pm on a monday. They do not live normally.
Flame used to not live by routine either, mostly in his earlier days, learning to keep one after joining the PZE. And after his mafia days he wanted to keep having a routine to have some sort of normalcy in his life. And now in the current times of LAW rule he definitely doesn't have that anymore.
Another crumb of normalcy being swept from him, breaking down the identity he built for himself, breaking down the person he swore to be.
Survival isnt a thing thats easy to get out of, even when everything is finally over going back to normalcy is tough. Thats why everybody always hangs on every scrap and piece of it that they have. And it doesn't always work out.
And sometimes, it makes things even worse than before.
Flame struggles letting go of things, whether it be something like the identity the server gave him, a goal or a person, he's not going to just let those things slip away from him. Hes stubborn. And it never leads him anywhere, because some things need to be set free, given up on. I think him gripping onto that immortal, strongest, tough title is messing him up beyond fixing.
I think his case of being called a "lost cause" was incredibly different than Wemm's. They both meant "you can never get better" but to Flame it was that he can never get better as a person, never get better mentally. Lomedy tried fixing him but you cant always fix everything. And I think thats both due to his stubbornness but also due to the fact that he was doomed to turn out this way from the start, doomed by the people arround him, doomed by the way he is.
I wish people saw that part of him more, every single fucking time theres ever anything about him anywhere it's never in a serious way. People put him in the same boat they put Spoke in, never to be taken seriously, never to be looked deeper into. When he got called a lost cause people only used that as joking material, and to bring Wemmbu into it and proceed to make it about them instead of Flame. (before anybody says anythjng abt me doing that.. im just usinf them as a comparison, not a replacement)
I think all he yearns for in life is a sense of normalcy, for people to see him as more than a killer and a monster. I dont think he ever wanted to become this way, because yeah, he does like to fight. He wont hesitate to kill. But that doesn't necessarily mean he always wants to and has always wanted to.
His character is way more sad than people make him out to be. And the next time i hear somebody make a bro joke im putting my arm through the screen and strangling them