its so funny because even though i have this amazing boyfriend who i love so much (in a mature way too, I've never loved someone and like, saw a future with them but damn i see the rest of my life with baseball boy for sure) and he's so good to me and everything i wanted and i am still very uncomfortable about the way things ended with matt cause it was super good that we broke up but even though I'm not super pissed when i think about it anymore it still frustrates me to no end that he got to walk away like he was totally blameless and that everyone thought i was so terrible and my boyf is so good about talking about it with me and helping me realize that its so, unimportant, but when i get tipsy and he's in his own bed for once cause he had work to do and 9ams to attend, i get bitter about it again i guess
idk where i'm going with this I'm drunk and ditched team initiation cause i was too tired to go to the vic and I'm just sort of rambling