#sober.log

[stonergrrl34]

as much as I hate sobriety I do think I can achieve great things with this (forced) tolerance break

i feel more aware than ever sober yk i'm actually in my head

i am insanely exhausted yes but i also do not feel compelled by the sweet serene siren of drugs to keep getting high and doing nothing

i wrote a little today and without my sleepy drugs ill be awake for like a normal amount of hours so i can write even more than usual

it's rough but i think sobriety can be good

i am going to go back to doing all sorts of substances after this tolerance break but i think i want to try using in moderation and not just... whatever i have been doing

[vacuumgirl666]

ok the hard part of the week end is starting.

I’m starting to feel the down effects of the long snorting session, I’m getting tired but more importantly my brain really really is telling me that he need a bump, just a small one, otherwise we can’t start to cook or do whatever…

I know it’s not true and I have to keep the bag full for tonight otherwise I’ll regret it.

I have to tell myself that I don’t need coke to focus on my studies or cleaning, I can do it and my body can find and produce the energy to do it.

I’ve already drank a full bottle of water, took the vitamin etc…

it’s going to be hard, it feels harder than usual, probably the month sober makes the usual amount I use to do in this kind of night hit harder…but I know I can do it, still 7 hours before I can open the bag and start ride the slope again

[stonergrrl34]

despite my positivity the withdrawal is beginning to find me and i am in hell

[stonergrrl34]

dude i'm so sober i'm going to cry

[stonergrrl34]

2 and a half weeks more sober and then i'm good to go

I’ve been sober for 2 weeks and 2 days so far

[stonergrrl34]

five days sober

[stonergrrl34]

day 3 of being sober

kill me please