#sof vents

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I don't feel gooddddd

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"Do you have a crush on anyone" "oh come on you'd look so cute with ___"

No you fail to understand I don't like anybody because I'm convinced that I'm not someone anybody could ever fathom liking as more than a friend

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Am I supposed to be this hollow

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W

My brain hurts so does my chest I don't think it's gonna be fixed this time

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W

I on't wanna do the same thign every day for the next 3 years and the years after that and the years after that I don't wanna exist anymore like I don't wanna live I don't wanna die but ldont know

I told my mom I didn't wanna go to school and she was like 'when you stsrt working you'll wanna go back' no no I won't but I won't wanna go to work either and at that point what is even the point

And the sad part is I laughed a lot today and I smiled a lot today but I just feelcempty

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Sometimes I get in this mental state of "I'm gonna do the same thing for the next 3 years and then the years after thst because more school" and then I kinda just wanna die but it's not that serious bro get over yourself

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Just a fair warning I isolate myself so much so if I randomly just stop answering its not you, it's me being a bad friend

(I don't anticipate this happening soon on here so don't worry anyone, if I don't answer chances are I'm just busy or I forgot)

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I wanna be done escapism isn't working anymore I fear 😔