I used to be so concerned with what I was doing every day and all the things that used to occupy my time, energy and focus.
I worried about all the tasks I had to get done and I thought to be happy, I needed to get everything accomplished as fast as possible.
Turns out, doing all the things super fast and packing my days with work, projects and things only made me unhappy.
I lived every day just going from one thing to the next and somewhere along the way, I stopped living.
I couldnβt see the beauty all around me because I was rushing to conquer the world..
Only, I never seemed to get everything done, and the more I did, the more that there was left to do.
So I did what I had to do and I stepped back and took a hard look at my life.
I thought I was getting ahead when really, I was just surviving..
Jumping from one task to the next and never coming up for air or slowing down to enjoy my life.
Iβm done living moment to moment any more.
Iβm putting away the lists, the plans and the drive to get everything done as fast as possible.
Sure, Iβm going to keep doing the things that need to get done, thatβs just life.
Now, though, Iβm going to do what I should have always been doing.
Iβm going to live and fall in love with being alive every day.
Iβm going to be present in the moments that make up my life.
Iβm going to see all the wonder and joy that Iβve been missing as I rushed through my days.
The stress and hurry isnβt making me happier, itβs doing just the opposite.
I donβt need more stuff, I need more beautiful memories..
And Iβll never be able to appreciate those moments that turn into memories if Iβm constantly stressed about what I need to do or whatβs next on my list.
So, Iβm stepping back and taking a deep breath.
Iβm going to do what I can, when I can, how I can and let the chips fall where they may.
Iβm going to experience all the joys Iβve been overlooking.
Feel the wind on my face, the rain pattering down, the wet nose kisses of a puppy, the hug of a loved one..all the things I should have been immersing myself in all along.
Itβs time to stop existing and start living.
I donβt know what tomorrow brings, but I do know that now, Iβll soak in the beauty of today..
And I wonβt miss a thing of what truly matters:
Life, love and happiness,
Just the way Iβve always wanted.
