Lost.
"Rainy afternoon. She stood nervously behind her front door, debating whether it was worth the effort to trot out in the rain, to her car, just to go to the gym for two hours. She paced back and forth, looked down, and pinched her midsection. She was disgusted, but she didn't feel the motivation to go to the gym. She lost all motivation to go anymore ever since they stopped going together. The thing was, she left the pair. It was all her fault that they couldn't work out together anymore, and now, she alone can't bring herself to the gym. Little by little, she began to hate herself, how she looked, how she felt, to the extent that she never wanted to be seen. Then and there, she stopped eating. Then and there, things were lost. Fat, muscle, emotions, dignity; all were lost."