#sol andoras

[wren-is-writing]

eldain and/or sol hehe

THE SKRUNGLKIES. THE BLORBOS. THE ONLY REASON JC DRAGONS BOOK 2 PASSES THE REVERSE BECHDEL TEST (eldain first, sol second!)

[wren-is-writing]

21–23 please MWAH MWAH MWAH

HEHEHE THANK YOU >:) im assuming u meant for me to continue with sol so i will bc the hal pill is strong today

21. How does your OC handle criticism?

Honestly this is probably one of the things that’s changed most over his life. When he was in his delinquent prince era, he would either ignore it (if he didn’t care about the person it was coming from) or get extremely defensive and self-righteous about it and dig his heels in further (if it was coming from someone whose opinion he valued). As a new king, though, he was extremely sensitive to any criticism and lived his life largely guided by the principle that he didn’t want to give anyone important a reason to criticize anything he was doing. He was very insecure in his position and recognized that basically no one had any faith in him, and so he needed desperately to prove himself and felt that weight all the time. Now that he’s established as a pretty decent ruler, though, he’s started making some more controversial moves. He’s known as a pretty good head of state (if a little bit passive), so he feels like he has the ability to start fighting with his council and weather anything negative they say about him. By the time we see him, he’s somewhat reverted to simply ignoring criticism and getting rather obstinate about certain things.

22. How good is your OC at apologizing, if they do this at all?

What is the trajectory of Sol’s adult life if not one big apology for doing drugs and gay kissing in his early twenties? On a broad level, he is really really good at apologizing, mostly because he is also really good at fucking up. He was less good at it when he was younger and less guilt-ridden about everything, but by the time we actually see him he’s a D1 apologizer. On an interpersonal level… it depends. He’s pretty good with apologizing to people he cares about, but there are also some shitty things he’s done that he refuses to be sorry for because he believed it had to be done and therefore simply will not apologize. Livia I will avenge you.

23. What is your OC like when they’re angry?

He is, at his core, a diplomat who is very good at hiding what he’s feeling, so when he’s angry he doesn’t tend to show it outright. The biggest sign is clipped responses from him and a general coldness. He doesn’t tend to have angry outbursts or anything because having real emotions is for gay losers and he has to control every response to everything or he’ll die

[wren-is-writing]

6 for sol !!! (said evilly)

6. How comfortable is your OC in their skin? Do they like who they are? What would they want to change about themself?

LOOORDD this IS evil!! For the uninitiated, Sol is the result of me asking myself “what if I made the king of Ovenna Prince Hal/King Henry V (tone tag Shakespeare) and he was turbo gaytrans and his kingification was an explicit re-closeting and he’s been the saddest most miserable man* alive for ten years by the time we see him. And also he was too lame to conquer France”

Sol is extremely uncomfortable in his own skin :( Obviously there’s the physical aspect to this - he went Man Mode when his mom died and he Locked TF In and has been presenting exclusively as a man for a decade at this point. He doesn’t have an issue with looking masc, but the dysphoria he experiences comes from feeling trapped in that one presentation and being unable to explore anything else out of fear. However, there’s also a psychological aspect to it. Even when he was transmaxxing with his lowlife besties who used any pronouns for him he would only use he/him in his own narration. It’s not that he doesn’t know he’s genderweird, he was just too wary to commit with the knowledge in the back of his mind that he would have to king it up one day. So even when he was outwardly allowing himself the kind of self-expression he craved, he was still kind of in mental chains about it and has never fully been able to accept and explore that part of himself.

This also kind of applies to his lack of attraction to women and asexuality, however that one is a little more self-accepted. It’s in a bit of a fatalist way where he understands it’s pointless to try to force attraction but he also will NOT allow himself to have any crushes because that’s gay :/ With the power of his mind he can stop the gay thoughts before anyone realizes and calls him gay again. Surely this repression ability will not start to crumble after ten years and shape geopolitics in any way,

As for the last two questions, those are a bit more complicated. He does not like who he is but moreso because he sees himself as failing in his role as king rather than because he has some inherent issue with his own gay or transness. He thinks being gaytrans is chill and awesome and he is even pushing to legalize gay marriage for everyone else! He just does not think he personally is allowed to do it because he has to be Thee King. He isn’t even a bad administrator, but he has been told pretty much his entire life that he lacks the inherent qualities of a monarch and he’s internalized that to an insane degree so I don’t think he’s ever really been able to like himself. There’s also The Guilt™️ from the heinous shit he does as an adaptation of the end of Henry IV Part 2 but I will be keeping some of that under wraps >:) and that’s complicated because he does truly think he needed to do it and it was the move of a good king but not a good person.

In terms of what he would change about himself… honestly I will have to rotate that one a little further because the precise answer is evading me. He does have a lot of regrets, but barring one large thing he also does believe that everything he did was necessary for The Kingening even if he hated doing it. He feels too duty-bound to the nation and to his mother’s memory to throw that into jeopardy, but he also does truly value the time he spent goofing off with his peasants #hispeasants and wouldn’t want to do away with that either. I think in the end, he would probably just wish the transition to King Mode was easier and came more naturally to him. And also possibly that he didn’t have turbo PTSD from his one (1) experience in combat so he didn’t have to avoid war like the plague