#sol vent

[solspotted]

Distancing myself from everyone on every app everrr because I’m nothing but a burden

[solspotted]

I become so unimportant when there’s somebody else, anybody else

[solspotted]

Taking a nap to sleep off the absolute horrible batshit stupid stupid dumb ugly annoying stupid week I’ve had

[solspotted]

People say “just stop thinking negatively and you’ll feel better” like no shit?? Have you ever considered that hating myself wasn’t/ isn’t just a phase and all the hate I’ve directed towards myself is hard to undo ???

[solspotted]

It seems as though I have been blocked !! Wonderous

[solspotted]

I’m probably not gonna be online on Tumblr or discord for a while. I don’t feel as well as I used to be and while I do know that people like me it doesn’t feel like it at all sometimes. I’m just needed, not wanted. I’ve been having a hard time in my life (namely this stupid vacation i didn’t even want to go on that’s making me fail school) and realizing my family dislikes me and my friends don’t care enough to check up on me here, and on top of that my cousin (the one I’m sleeping over at) doesn’t actually like me at all and would rather hang out with my sisters who dislike me greatly, and that I’m being forced to be friends with her sister because I seem “very young” (READ: immature) to a lot of people, so obviously I must befriend an 11 year old who has nothing in common with me at all. I wanna go gome so bad. I wanna hug Jay and Cherry but I can’t and I’m upset and I don’t know how to tell them. Sorry for the rant.

Bye.

[solspotted]

One day I’ll make friends that actually like me

[solspotted]

Going to the mall’s build a bear . I want to sleep forever