#some throughts

[nelweensfic]

Kevin always liked Neil in a sibling way from the start. He doesn't know why but he wants to give Neil an opportunity, advises, and surprisingly, love.

A brotherly love.

And after all the event that year, even though he loves Exy more, seeing how that man put the team together was the last push.

So, during Neil's second year, and because his own dad is Neil's new father figure, Kevin decided that Neil would be his unofficial brother.

Unfortunately, that also means that Andrew would become his unofficial brother in law.

It's probably for the best, right ?

[goddamngeckogirl]

Paul Celans "Todesfuge"

This is one of the most powerful piece of literature I know and the most frightening.

I offen listen to it, listen to the hard sound of Celans voice, when I have the feeling to drown in something. For some reason this clears my mind and just leaves a hollowly feeling. A hollowness I can fill with new new things - structured ones or just with chaotic inspiration.

[goddamngeckogirl]

I guess I'm Switzerland...

Still brooding about the current situation but I guess I will maintain my neutral position. I will not pick a side, just because other are mad at each other.

I don't want to lose some of my dearest friends, just because they did... aweful stupid things and messed something up.Yes they are idiots but they hurt others - not me.

And I will not let myself engross by the other sides anger even if it is really tempting, when some sits besides you, clutching at you and sobbing in your hoodie because the tears won't stop.

I guess not all my friend will understand this but it's just impossle to pick a side for me. I can't and I won't. I not involved enought to do so.

I'm sorry if I annoy some of my followers with this but I need to get it out of my head and writing it down to others helps in some strange way.