J'ai someille...
Dear diary...
Lastly I've been feeling so tired. So tired of human life, so tired of bullshit, so tired of feeling like I was worthless. So tired of thinking. So tired of having this daily day-nightmare that I won't be able to do what I want in the future. So tired of failing. So tired of thinking I will fail in the most important part of my life.
J'ai someille...
I feel tire of monotony. I'm tired of fake people. I'm tired of feeling like a loser. I'm tired of feeling like I was a waste of space. So tired of watching how time is passing by so fast that I'm not even able to feel it.
J'ai someille....
You know... As a song says: "I wish that I could cope..." I wanna sleep. I need to sleep. But these two feelings are like: I wanna and I need to sleep forever. I don't wanna wake up. I don't wanna remember that I have to live a lie. "I wished that I could cope but I took pills and left a note..." My whole life is a lie. I can't be who the fuck I am supposed to be.
J'ai someille...
This society. This life. These problems I have. People. Lies. This things make me wanna sleep. Make me don't wanna wake up again, to show a mask, which only purpose is gonna be hide what I really feel. But I gotta pretend I'm happy living like this. It's funny because, I hate fake people, and me myself I'm being such a fake person.
J'ai someille...
Maybe I won't sleep. Maybe not my physic part. But I'm gonna make my soul fall into a deep sleep. And maybe someday someone somehow in somewhere far away from here will be able to wake me up. Waking me up with that feeling you mortals call: "Love" Will it be possible? I don't think so. I don't have faith in something like love.
This unicorns wants to sleep. Car, j'ai someille....