4/13/24 - a song/poem draft
Today was an interesting day
An old fandom’s anniversary
And I think for the first time in a while I can actually say
That I’m truly fucking happy.
Not just a burst of excitement
Or moment of enlightenment
Nor just fanatic sentiment
True internal contentment.
Realized I needed to celebrate
But plans had already been made
And those actually turned out great
I had a very good day.
Catching up with someone I once knew
Suffering through shopping none of us wanted to do
Infodumping and chatting over very good food
We even got ice cream too.
Home feels like home again
Surrounded by all my friends
Today’s already ending way too soon
Tell Neil to keep banging out those tunes!
Things feel like last year again
Did we really go back in time
Or did we just preform a scratch?
Remix it and start it all over to make sure our efforts last!
And, for the first time in a very long while,
Well over some months, I fear
I can say that while I didn’t always smile,
Today I didn’t shed one tear.
I can feel the dirt on my skin
The sweat on my face
Breathing quickly out and in
I feel so young again today.
And it’s odd, because I’m still young
And who knows when this song will actually be sung
But my perception of time messes with my mind
It feels like centuries have bared this life.
I should probably go spruce up
Get relaxed and call the day done
But tonight for once
I don’t wanna go down with the sun.
Because inside me now, there is a fire
And the smoke is rising higher
I don’t wanna stop burning bright
So I think I’ll live a little longer tonight.
Because who knows how long this feeling will last
Happy times can go by in a flash
Will this sustain or was a spell upon this day cast?
I’ll savor every moment ‘cause I’m not risking that.
Even those who hate me tonight cannot get me down
Tonight I’m just not caring, and I have no idea how
Makes me wanna climb up on the roof and shout
”You can’t hurt me anymore, and you mean nothing to me now!”
And I know that’s careless, I know that’s crass
I know it’s conceited, I know that it’s brash
But just let me stop caring for one night, I need to let loose
Need to go draw and screw around
Gonna go down Faygo like it’s booze
By the the time I’m up tomorrow it’ll be half past noon.