#soothsayings

[sunflowersbymonet]

please how am I supposed to write three lengthy papers in the next few weeks when I am a) floating through a fog of seasonal depression b) blissfully dreamily in love & falling deeper every day

[sunflowersbymonet]

MY VISA ARRIVED THIS MORNING oh my god I’m so relieved I could cry. now i can fly out when I’m supposed to and I can meet my boyfriend at the airport and I can NEVER EVER DO THIS TO MYSELF AGAIN all my future visa applications are going to be made with idk six months of wriggle room and no previously-booked flights!!!

[sunflowersbymonet]

new kitten is ineffably adorable & also constantly Craves Human Contact

[sunflowersbymonet]

the feeling of being tenderly, genuinely cared for in a relationship is such a wonderful thing but actually being able to relax into it and enjoy it completely without any sense of guilt or trepidation??? an even BETTER thing <3

[sunflowersbymonet]

wow it is frankly dazzling what a difference it makes when u start dating someone who is actually so good for, and to, you - it feels like sun warming & shelter & your heart light enough to fly away. I feel like I should be terrified of it, but somehow I’m not and that in itself doesn’t scare me!!! what is happening who even am i

[sunflowersbymonet]

currently curled up in bed in my house in the uk eating jaffa cakes and watching doctor who and oh man 2012 me would be thrilled out of her fucking mind if she knew this was her future

[sunflowersbymonet]

a fun question to wonder about is whether all your close-proximity friendship groups eventually turn sour because there’s something fundamentally wrong with you or if you just have phenomenally bad luck in friends ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

[sunflowersbymonet]

things are hard hard hard right now but I know they’re going to be better soon because I can sense change is coming and all this second-guessing is going to take me somewhere new and clear. I just need to remind myself of this over and over and to let myself cry when I need to while I’m riding it out (which is harder than it sounds, I hate crying for myself, but it’s a necessary evil).