Kind of triggering?? it's not that serious to me to be honest, not really sad, but i guess it has a trigger about bad past experiences? idk, just mostly me complaining or telling random stuff, i love ranting..
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Depression goes so insane it can make yo skin change color bro, ever since i was born i was a dark tan color, when i became 13, i just stopped doing everything like eating, going out, talking to other people, no sun, no nothin, all i did was stay at my room locked up for years, somehow... my skin eventually got way lighter than it was. My biggest regret was straightening my hair, my hair was too hard to deal with but it lost its spark- now after testosterone i think it's lowkey starting to fall off ngl 😭 i woke up with a bit of bald looking spots and i could swear i had more hair. Good part of it it's that my hair is curly now, not all the way, but i can see it might come back to it's first state one day...hopefully. Testosterone lowkey saved me, i barely felt any appetite before, now i eat like a starving man, my back aint never been this big🤞 but the bad side was that i started to get cramps a lot more often. I barely had cramps before, like i mean never ever, even on my period, when i stopped having it, it was where the pain started to appear often, and worse sometimes. Weird thing; I still get glared, side eyed and judged in bathrooms and everywhere, but i came to realize it has always happened since i was a kid so i'm guessing the problem is just my existence lmao?? dudes be wilding more tho, men are so weird they think just cuz i look like their buddies they can go ahead and say some insane shit 2 me wich is like brotha😭🙏tf u on about. Genuinely people can't tell what color i am in real life, some girl was trynna tell everyones skin color for some reason- next thing i know she stared at me and said "unidentified color" ??? like what? why she was even doing all that for?.. A thing i need to note to people so they would understand is that i was never considered white, i was born in a latino home with not much money, we did get better financially, but again, i was never privileged and i suffered a lotta racism my whole life so at the end of the day, i wouldn't consider myself white, specially taking the fact my family mixed as hell- or that i was darker than my light grayish olive-tan skin now, how to describe it? i don't know. And sending my hate to that bitchass cousin that got picked over me everytime only because they was white- had blue eyes and blonde hair, i swear to god one time i almost ripped my cheek open and my family still paid more attention to them than my bleeding mouth bro. People be wilding idk, okay byebye !!!!