#sosleepythough

[joverree]

First day of work was 👍👍👍 #ebarbabe #ebar #nordstrom #tacoma #baristalife #baristababe #letmemakeyoucoffee #igettowearallblack #yassss #sosleepythough (at Nordstrom Tacoma Mall)

[singingalongtoremember]

I feel like as soon as I go to sleep the band members are all going to tweet about the tour ending....

[omg-spobyy-blog]

I did this earlier, so if you guys want to send me a couple more urls before I go to sleep i'll tell you what I think of them/their blog (:

[beautyoftheparagon-blog]

The Beautiful Kind, Making Up For Lost Time.

Where to start!

I guess I'll start with what I should, woke up at 7am for my biology exam and got kicked in the nuts... hard.

Then I went to Econ, running on like 3 hours and of sleep and allowed Dr. Maddox to pick on me for like 30 minutes, where I sleepily (and wrongly) answered his questions. 

After This, I didnt even bother eating, just slunked back into bed - and woke up about 20 minutes later to a big fucking bear in my face. Like a huge fucking bear... it's bigger then me.. in all honesty. Then I noticed it was the bear I had been swooning over for ever and told Andrew about and almost died. He then pulled out a boquet of roses from behind his back and wished me a happy valentines day.

Almost kicked him in the face for waking me up... but I allowed him to stay for a bit before leaving to my Volunteering at the domestic violence shelter.

I went to lils before I left and saw rachel and youuuu know whooooo together, and he looked.. happy.. and all the way to my community service I went from desperately exhausted to really happy/in a good mood and then I realized something sucky. Seeing him happy... made me feel really happy too. 

I then proceeded to want to throw up at my weakness and tried for the rest of the car ride to re-convince myself of my hate for him - but I couldn't. I want to, but I don't hate him, quite the opposite really. I want the best for him.. I want him to have an easy, good, fun, incredible life and I basically puked for being such a little punk over my ex's happiness and the possibility of there being a girl who could make him happy again.

A couple days ago, I had bought him a box of chocolates and a card, that I was going to give him cause I thought he didn't have a valentine for valentines day. So I went down to his room with all the stuff that I have of his, and when I put the clothing on the floor with the card and chocolates, I realized I had to throw the extra stuff out...

Cause come on, he was just going to show josh the note I wrote wishing him a happy valentines day and blah blah and the chocolates and they would just make fun of me for days on days.

So I picked the extra stuff up, ripped up the card and threw the chocolates in the trash before going back upstairs to my room.

So then Andrew comes in and brings me a big box of chocolates, and a picture of NC, to which I almost cry...  He then complains about how he has two more surprises for me yet, I haven't surprised him with anything at all. EXCUSE ME? do you know how expensive a hotel in buckhead is?! and adding on all the sexy lingerie I bought, and the wine and freaking rose petals! and I bought him sweets for lactose people since he can't have milk :( and a (super inappropriate) card!?

wow, I have way more to say... but this is why I have a diary, SO.. I'm off.