I am once again thinking about imogen
Just thinking about how she said laudna saved her life, how she's talked before about not knowing how long she would have lasted
Just the terror she was enduring before laudna dealing with new unfamiliar powers, dealing with terrifying dreams, dealing with being isolated, ostracized and hated, feared. It's just so much to go through and then on top of all that, because of that she starts becoming depressed and anxious, afraid of her own mind and the new dark things it's telling her. Having to grapple for control of her powers, terrified of ever stepping wrong, having to have such control to keep everyone else's voice out, but then having your own turn on you.
It getting bad enough that she starts to think it would be better if she wasn't there, better if she was just gone, and no one would care and it would be fine and she doesn't need to live anymore. And that being terrifying because when did you stop wanting to live, when did you lose control of your own mind so much that this is where you're at now. Having the presence of mind to know that you're not there yet, you're not about to do anything about it, yet. That lingering thought, yet, hovering ever present, knowing that it's coming and not being able to stop it and not having control.
That coupled with dealing with this alone and knowing your powers are somewhat tied to your emotions, knowing that you are not in control of your emotions, but having to be, having to be so controlled because if you stop for even a second something bad will happen.
Just the way that she stared into that abyss and everyday took a step closer, knowing oblivion would eventually come. And before it could, before she got too far, there comes Laudna, honest and kind and full of light and hope.
