#sparkyrambles

[lovelypastelroses]

One of my big religious/spirituality things I do is I just

Am so respectful and thankful for everything,

I say thank you to the statue in the cemetery, doing her job looking over the dead

I say hello to the street lamp that is always on whenever I walk home

I talk to the basement at work when I go and get donations and explain what I am looking for

I giggle when the wind spins around me, and thank it for playing with me

It is fun when I treat the world as if it is full of spirits and show it care and love

It makes everything less terrifying and lonely, and makes the world seem more kind

[lovelypastelroses]

Being alone does things to your brain

The world becomes so small, it is only you here, everyone else you see are little accessories to make it seem more alive, but they are not there for you

Your life is a secret between you and yourself, everything you do a mystery to the world and no one is around to validate you doing it

You try and sleep more because at least in your dreams the people talk to you

Now reality is blurring and you don't know where you really are, or what day it is

The only thing you know for sure is

You are alone

[sparkywrites25]

Apologies

I am so so sorry about the lack of activity and the delay in getting the requests out. I didn't anticipate when I gave the "I'll get all requests done within a week or a few weeks" thing that I would take so long. (Also I didn't expect to get so many requests over those months which I ADORE and thank y'all so much for.)

The first thing I want to say is that those requests are still coming. Some of them were planned out and then I changed my mind and replanned them again (and again in some cases, with a couple still in the replan stage). However they are still coming.

There have been a few reasons for me being quiet. One of them was that I got back in touch with an old friend and we have a pairing of our two characters and so I started doing some writing for them. (It's an honour to be trusted with someone else's character and my friend is always giving me amazing feedback on it.)

Another was that I, admittedly got sucked into Sims 4 which, for me, is quite the rabbit hole. I was also recently contemplating doing picture-writing stories for them but as this actually slows my gameplay down, I'm shelving that until I can get on top of other priorities etc. Plus playing Sims slowly is a pain for me.

Anyway, I'm rambling (as per usual I guess) I also in recent weeks kinda fell into this pit of procrastination and lethargy when it came to writing of all kinds. I was eh about novel planning, the stuff with my friend and fanfiction. I just kinda fell out of things a little.

However I am feeling better from all that so I'll be diving back into my favourite activities - writing and reading fanfiction very soon. Thank y'all so much for your patience with me.

Suffice to say that until I get on top of things, my requests will now be closed. However I still welcome asks to this blog and my two rp blogs @askrivetra and @alwaysaskerurihan. They are still active but since asks have dried up, I haven't done anything with them lately. However anyone following the Ask Rivetra blog will know there are some updates overdue, hehe.

Regarding the AOT finale, I haven't watched yet because I'm currently rewatching AOT and so I'm gonna wait to get there naturally before I see it. However I don't mind spoilers or discussions considering I've read the manga and all. It makes me sad to think that this is the last ep and so I'm glad to be drawing it all out some more.