#spazl

[petiteidjit]

Okay I'm happy again.

Axls been supah sweet, scratched my back, played with my hair and done my hot water bottle because cramps. I'm lucky he's mine :3

[petiteidjit]

Since I've gotten back from solfest all I've done is shower, axls been doing everything, making me cuppas, made tuna noodles even though he hates the smell of tuna and keeps cuddling me and playing lots of cute songs for me. Feel like crying because he's just too good for me&makes me feel the greatest ever I would be so lost without him he's made these past two years amazing 💗

[petiteidjit]

dreading college it's so shit this year cba going and putting up with people who I can't stand and don't like me. I swear I'm only still going because Axl keeps reminding me it's better than sitting at home all day or something. But he's said I should look into hair dressing apprenticeships and stuff so I might idk just glad I have him to keep me sane<3

[petiteidjit]

Exposing my boyfriend to extreme tmi because I lack friends and he's also my best friend. He has to deal with this stuff :3

[petiteidjit]

Hobbit tickets are booked for tomorrow for the 16:00 showing so excited! Really do have the best boyfriend ever taking me to see The Hobbit as part of my Christmas present ❤❤❤

[petiteidjit]

being in love is the strangest thing ever

I can go from being in the worst state ever to being completely fine and better than fine. I can feel a huge warmness spread through me and make me laugh just from one look or silly action which probably didn't mean a thing. It can also have the opposite affect too, I can go from happy to depressed, worried and paranoid over one tiny thing. It's an emotional rollercoaster which has me on my toes but keeps me happy and feeling loved no matter what.

I can't imagine there being a better feeling than this :3 

[petiteidjit]

Quite genuinely can't wait for in a few years when me and Axl are living together and can spend as much time together as we like, and when we get sick of eachother we can just go do our own thing. i just want to know that when i start to miss him I can just walk into the next room not have to wait for the weekend and never go sleep wishing i could have a cuddle

[petiteidjit]

was just lying in bed trying to sleep and I burst out crying -_-

I really honestly have no idea why I'm reacting to hard to my grandma, she's doing loads better yet when I think about her I get really upset and want to cry. I'm also missing my best friend but idk she's not really bothered with me since leaving guess she's busy settling in to uni and everything which is great ^^ College is okay, shit compared to last year I'm just missing everyone too much and how things were.

and there's so much more going on, I feel like it's all hit me at once >_< wish I was better at dealing with everything but right now the only thing I want is Axl and I just want to curl up in his lap have a little cry, nap and just lie there have him play with my hair and stuff while I pretend that everythings perfect and calm. I'm getting too soppy :')