Oct 6, 2023
being blurry/dissociated for days is the worst thing to ever happen. it really sucks not knowing who you are or how to navigate communication through that. because like i know some of me is there but not fully and that doesn’t feel right to continue like my full self. i’d rather wait it out until something figures itself out before i say or do anything. that isn’t healthy but i just feel guilty otherwise yknow? i don’t want to speak until it’s the full extent of me. that’s probably goddamn selfish but i really don’t know how to navigate that. and god forbid i talk about something else again. it’s a lot and i want to disappear back into my little hole of no communication :(