She heard him arrive more than she saw him. Quiet, muffled pawsteps brushing over the sand. "Why did you follow me?" Spindlefleck asked quietly.
"No reason," Tidechaser replied evenly. "But I know what it's like, to sit here, hoping that the cat you're longing to see will appear for you."
"And did they?" Spindlefleck thought she knew the answer.
"No," he replied, "and neither will Currentheart. Not tonight. Not to you."
His words stung, but she supposed they were true. Pearl and Currentheart had named Dustjump as the bridge between their worlds. They sat in silence for a while before she had the courage to break it again.
"I guess I hoped... that being here would help me make sense of it all. My life isn't turning out at all the way I thought it would."
"No cat's does."
Tidechaser didn't turn to look at her as he spoke. It was a simple statement. She supposed that most cats would find it insensitive. But she didn't think he'd meant it that way, and she didn't find herself feeling hurt or belittled by his words. No cat's does... Somehow, that made her feel a little bit less lonely.
âI smell blood!â Splashstone winced at the reaction his warning yielded in his two companions. Spindlefleck and Sandtail both froze, eyes blown wide. Heâd only meant to alert them, not dredge up dark memories.Â
âWeâre not far from the Thunderpath,â Spindlefleck murmured, voice low. âDo you think..?â She trailed off into a tense silence, and Splashstone knew she was remembering the kittypet sheâd found on the edge of the stinking black stone during her apprentice days.
âRelax, Spindle,â Splashstone did his best to keep his tone light but gentle. Carefree. âThe blood-scent isnât thick enough for that. Itâs probably just a loner with a cut.â
Spindlefleckâs fur started to flatten, but Sandtail remained on guard, and Splashstone felt his heart break all over again for the cream colored tom. Even with Currentheartâs assurance that his death had not been Sandtailâs fault, he clearly still held himself at least partially responsible for the tragedy. âWe still need to be careful,â Sandtail warned. âWe have no idea what could have injured them. Weâll proceed slowly, and Iâll take the lead.â
Splashstone dipped his head to the deputyâs command, setting off after the tom at a creeping pace. They couldâve safely gone faster with Splashstone in the leadâhe knew he had the best nose on the patrolâbut this wasnât the time or place to challenge orders, so he slunk along silently after Sandtail.
The patrol finally broke through the forestâs undergrowth to an open stretch of grass and mud in a dip beside the Thunderpath. As Splashstone felt his paws squish into the deep mud, he let out a quiet hiss of annoyance. No wonder heâd never been this way beforeâno cat in their right mind would ever come this way. So what was a wanderer doing here?
The blood scent led them to a stinking stone opening beneath the Thunderpath. Splashstone could just make out a cream colored ball of fur just inside the entrance of the holeâthe source of the blood scent. Sandtail slowed their approach even further, and finally bade them wait with a flick of his tail when they were ten fox lengths away. Splashstone crouched down with an internal groan, his paws sinking deeper into the muddy earth as Sandtail approached the ball of fur alone.Â
âHello?â He called cautiously.
The pile of fur erupted into motion, a skinny cream colored molly leaping to her paws and scrambling a few steps deeper into the tunnel. âPlease donât kill me!â She wailed, âIâm leaving, I really am, I just needed to rest a moment, please give me another chance to go and youâll never see me again! I-I swear it!â
âWhat?â Sandtail sputtered. Caution morphed into confusion, then concern in the face of the mollyâs abject terror.Â
Splashstone and Spindlefleck were making their way to their deputyâs side before heâd even finished signaling to them that it was safe. âWeâre not going to hurt you,â Spindlefleck murmured, âwe want to help. That injury to your paw looks painful.â
âI-Iâ The molly gulped in a few deep breaths, her trembling easing just a little. âYou mean⊠youâre not with them, then?â
âWeâre not sure what you mean,â Spindlefleck soothed, âweâve been living here on the beach for a few seasons now, but weâve never attacked or driven away any cat, and we certainly wouldnât hurt you. Can you tell us your name? And explain what happened to you?âÂ
The instructions seemed to be soothing the jumpy molly, her fur was starting to flatten, and her eyes were no longer quite so wide. âMy name is Quiver,â she began.
Quiver, Splashstone eyed the way that her three good legs were still shaking just a little. It suits her.
âI lived in a driftwood pile much farther up the beach,â Quiver continued, âI kept to myself, mostly, hunting along the shoreline in the tidepools. Th-then, a little over a quarter moon ago, this group of cats showed up. They were very strange, told me that I needed to leaveâthatâthat I didnât deserve to set foot on the sand, and that if I didnât go, they were going to make me leave. They said three sunrises to find somewhere in the forest before they would remove me from the beach themselves. Now, I thought that was just ridiculous, I mean, Iâve never seen them around these parts before, I figured that they were just talking big, the way some cats do, and that so long as I cleared out for a few days theyâd lose interest and move on, so I went to stay up in the cliff cavesâyou know the ones, lots of little nooks and tunnels?â
âWe know it,â Sandtail confirmed, his tone just barely impatient. The cliff caves were past TurtleClanâs hunting grounds, but Splashstone had been up that way himself a pawful of times before theyâd established boundaries, looking for other survivors. âPlease, continue,â Sandtail prompted after the silence had stretched a few more heartbeats.
âYes! Right! Well, they found me just a day later. Said theyâd given me plenty of warning, and that now I needed to be taught a-a lesson, so one of them took my foreleg andâandââ Quiver broke off into a fit of trembling and panting. She didnât need to continueâthe rest of the story was obvious.Â
âWeâre going to take you back to our camp,â Sandtail said in a low, steady voice. âWe have a cat there who can healâa cat who can help you.â The deputy turned his striking green gaze to Splashstone. âSplash, could you run ahead and tell Dustjump to prepare for an injury? Tell her it looks serious, but that the patient doesnât seem to be in immediate danger of death,â he dropped his voice to barely a whisper on the last word, but Splashstone still Quiverâs ear twitch nervously. âSpindlefleck and I will help her back.â
âOf course,â Splashstone murmured, feeling nothing but pity for the injured molly. âIâll make sure Dustjump is ready for her.â
Spindlepaw-- no, she was Spindlefleck now-- Spindlefleck's eyes found Foam in the crowd. Her former mentorâs gaze shone with pride as their eyes met. Integrity and strength of spirit⊠those were the values that Shell had chosen to describe her. Values that she never would have developed without his guidance. She blinked her gratitude at him. Thank you, my teacher.
Shell leapt down from the Tallmast, striding forward to touch noses with Spindlefleck. âWell done, Spindlefleck,â Shell murmured, âand congratulations. We have all been looking forward to this day for many moons.âÂ
Not as much as I have, Spindlefleck added silently.Â
âNow, thereâs one final thing,â Shell purred, Guiding her over to where Dustjump was waiting, tail wrapped around her paws. Beside her lay a large, flat stone, caked with layers of old mud in varying shades.
âHave you gathered the earth you want to use?â Dustjump asked.Â
âI have,â Spindlefleck meowed. âI gathered it this morning before hunting.âÂ
Each cat to make their right of passage selected and gathered earth from somewhere on the territory to use in mixing the mud that they would use to leave their pawprint on the passage boulder. From the corner of her eye, Spindlefleck could see Currentheart weaving his way through the crowd with the leaf-wrapped pile of earth sheâd collected early that morning. She felt a rush of gratitude for her friendâshe wouldnât have wanted to step away from this for a moment. As Currentheart placed the bundle on the stone and Dustjump began to unwrap the bundle, Shell raised her voice so that all of the gathered cats could hear. âWhence comes your chosen earth?â Shell asked.
âFrom the tops of the cliffs upshore of camp,â Spindlefleck responded, her meow strong and clear.
âWhy did you choose this place?â
Spindlefleck knew that some cats might have given a long, drawn out explanation. Not her. âI love the feeling of the wind in my fur. When I stand against the ocean breeze atop the cliffs, I feel strong and free.â
Shell dipped her head. âWell spoken. We will now mix your chosen earth with water from the sea upon this stone, where each of us mixed our own passage markers. The remnants of mud left here by each of us will mix with the earth you have chosen, binding you as one of us.â At her words. Dustjump squeezed out a sodden moss ball above the pile of earth, mixing it around with a paw until it congealed into a thick paste.Â
Silently, Spindlefleck stepped forward, coating her paw in the mud. It was cold and gritty against her paw pad, and she repressed a shiver. It might be unpleasant, but she had to bear with it. This was her right of passage! She wasn't a kit in the nursery, mewling at the slightest discomfort. She was one of the survivors now. A full member of the group. An equal. Finally, finally she was an equal to all of the others. Finally they could stop treating her like she was too young or too inexperienced to be taken seriously. It had been a long time coming.
With her paw tucked up to her chest, she limped across the clearing. The crowd of onlookers parted for her as she went, with a few cats offering quiet words of congratulations or welcome. When she reached the Passage Boulder, Spindlefleck spent a moment scanning the striped face of the rock for where she would make her markâthere. Currentheartâs mark stood alone, towards the entrance of the den the adult cats shared. With a deep breath, Spindlefleck reached out her mud-coated paw, and pressed it slowly, firmly against the surface of the stone, just a little below her denmateâs mark. The mud squelched back between her toes as she pressed down, but she did not tremble: her heart was too full of joy for anything else to register. She had waited for this day for so long. Finally, she had caught up to her friends.
âWe are proud to have you join us,â Shell meowed formally, âyou may not wash the mud from your paw until sunhigh tomorrow. Bear it proudly a symbol of your new rank among us, and know that from this day forward, wherever your path takes you, your campmates will follow in your pawsteps to support you.â
Spindlefleck raised her chin as her campmates tilted their heads back to yowl their pride in her out into the sky once more.
Spindlefleck let sob after sob shake her as she leaned up against Foam, staring down at the body of her friendâof the cat sheâd hoped would one day be her mate. Seeing the kittypet on the Thunderpath had been hard, disturbing, but she had been a stranger, at least. This was Currentheart. And that was both heartbreaking and terrifying. How could a cat so full of life and energy be reduced to this⊠empty shell in a single afternoon? It was wrong.  And all she could do about it was sit here and cry like a kit looking for its mother. She'd been wrong. She hadn't changed at all. She was going to be alone, left behind by the cats she cared about. Forever.