I just finished watching Star Trek 3, the Search for Spock, and I've suddenly realized how much of McCoy dealing with Spock's katra was "behind the scenes" so to speak.
Kirk, to his crew, mentioned how McCoy was struggling a lot (this was before he knew of Spock's katra). He mentioned that McCoy was on a lot of tranquilizers to deal with whatever caused McCoy's odd talk with Kirk. It's said that it's blamed as exhaustion, yet I can't help but feel like McCoy was really struggling, either emotionally, mentally, or physically. He had to be, right?
Other than the few scenes where Spock spoke through McCoy, we don't see much of this struggle which may be expected while someone carries a katra. It's just spoken of, hinted at, even as Kirk constantly askes McCoy how he's doing, but we never really see how McCoy is truly dealing with it.
Part of me is disappointed that we couldn't get a closer look at the true impact the katra made on McCoy, before, during, and after, and now I'm left with a lot of questions.
Was McCoy loosing his mind? Was he forgetting parts of himself, was he feeling anything at all, or was Spock's katra stopping most emotion from coming through? Did McCoy know something was wrong the entire time, even before he begged Kirk to take him home? Did the forced mind meld he endured years before make things worse? Was he in physical pain, as well as mental? Did anyone else notice that he was acting off while they journeyed home?
The Search for Spock was such an incredible movie, but I desperately want more info about what happened to McCoy. It's such an interesting thing, to hold one's entire being in another's mind, and I refuse to admit that it was as easy on McCoy like what was shown.
[Image ID] digital fanart on a blue background shows Spock suspended in space, with golden stars beneath him. He has long hair, which is floating above him. He's glowing yellow. A poem to the left of him reads "It used to be/ I danced in the stars/ Now/ I float in the space /Between them/ Motionless/ Their beauty has not dimmed. Text beneath this reads Poem By Herenya_Writes, art by Marlinspirkhall. [End ID]
