#spockward

[darkmus]

[objblogs]

67bluetardis, daikiaomines, dontevergrowupinneverland, frozen-octave, kaawoshin, lazierthentheamericangovernment, @slavetoshipping, @spockward, youre-5-foot-a-bitch, yulaila

Gumball guy's pretty cute.

[monozettai]

spockward replied to your post “spockward replied to your post “[[MOI know what the problem is. I...”

im currently taking a break from my therapy for financial reasons but i know im looking for a new one once i go back to it. i didnt want to cause its "easier" but its not in my best interest to stay with someone i cant trust 100%

I've always had trust issues, I'll sometimes even think good friends despise me when of course they don't. I just don't understand how they could like me so of course it must all be lies, right? It's nonsense of course and I know that now but this is a moment of clarity so it's just nice to write this stuff down. I'm still looking for that person I can trust, I think. "Easy" really is a good way to put it...easy but yet not easy at all. To resign myself to this endless daydream or to wake up and face reality...of course there's only one choice that makes sense but I've been dragging my feet for so long (loooong) that it makes it hard to see any real hope no matter how much I want it. I try to put on a strong face when others need help because I honestly want to help them but it's also to try to find myself again. I just look at myself and see a thing and I have rashes on my face from messing with it, trying to feel some comfort again in my own skin by trying to shape it into something I can remember. I just don't even feel like a person anymore and I can't stand it.

[monozettai]

spockward replied to your post “[[MOR]I know what the problem is. I know I’ve changed into something...”

that being said, i dont know your story and i dont know what kind of treatment you've already enrolled in or if you're currently doing something about it. but dont be afraid to find a new doctor or therapist if you think thats best

Thank you. I have been getting help but honestly it isn't enough. I'm so sick of this though, I just want to change at this point. I'm actually looking into changing psychiatrists right now.

[fatesruin]

spockward replied to your post:The rain started almost an hour ago with a rifle...

be safe!!!

It'll take a lot more than some water to take me out, proven fact. There has been three test trials (read: idiocy, no supervision, and a metric shitload of luck) and water hasn't been able to claim me yet!

All jokes aside, thanks dude. I'll try to be safe. Knowing my luck, however, something is bound to happen. I also think the setting is kinda eerie since it's happening the night of the 'blood moon'.

[ofraa]

happy birthday!!!! <3333333 UuU

hehe thanks becac. i miss your face and your bobos lol;)

[but-it-burned-in-one]

Spockward

[hylyx]

OMFG BECCA I JUST SAW THE PICTURE GIVE ME LIKE 3 SECONDS TO GET OFF MOBILE CAUSE IT WONT LET ME ADD A REPLY FRICK