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Day Fourteen: Relationships

woo more symmetry but y they all reversed

1. How do I feel about my relationships?

Six of Wands (reversed): “the card for the victor; skipped over or ignored despite their victory” *ugly laughter* i will admit to being fairly needy but terrible about keeping in touch and those are a Not Great combo. so yeah, it’s really easy for me to feel like this even if it is 1000000% not true

2. Am I being honest about my feelings with others?

Three of Pentacles (reversed): “the nurturing of a new opportunity with meager initial investment; despite all efforts, the subject is unable to get their project off the ground” *more ugly laughter* due to Things I am not that great at being honest and instead am more like what I think other people want from me. u kno ur a true friend when i start letting that slip more and u find out the little “““unacceptable”““ parts of me

3. What relationships in my life do I need to reevaluate?

King of Swords (reversed): “an active blocking of ideas or actions in life, or a suppression of information, or that the King (the problem solver, judge, and advisor) in their lives refuses to listen to arguments and may be acting superior and cruel to those around him” man yeah for sure. i’ve been trying to talk to my King for a little while about something and he just...doesn’t seem to understand my view/concern while espousing understanding that i have tried to understand and have already taken that into consideration. in another relationship, i feel p much completely suppressed except when they’re in a good mood. it reminds me a hell of a lot of a past abusive relationship and i just clam up which is Not Good and i worry about another person involved in this who doesn’t really have a way out if they need it

4. How can I exhibit self-love and compassion towards myself?

Knight of Cups (reversed): ok boyo im gettin sick of seein u. and lmao i guess u have been buildin up to tell me to gtfo and distance myself from the Knight since they’re fuckin up my headspace rn. i will... attempt that in the nicest way possible since complete distance would be a no-go. but yeah, i feel this advice since it’s basically what my gma did when gpa died; she cut out all the negative people in her life and was super better for it

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Day Thirteen: Indifference

so apparently indifference is a Major thing for me

1. Why don’t I care?

The Empress: “Maternal nature; luxury, sensuousness; nature and tapping into the natural order” ahahah callin me out. im p set in life rn, with fam who can take care of and support me while i flounder with life and figure out next steps. so even tho there’s stuff i wanna do and there is a bit of a timetable for that i have the space to dick around if i wanna, and that’s easier and super tempting

2. Should I care?

The Moon (reversed): “fear; falling prey to illusions, falsehood, fantasies; delving into the imaginary; loss of direction” hmmm reversal here probably means that these things aren’t an issue atm but since it’s flipside they could be if i continue as i am. also might be dealing more with the reality of the situation and how i should get back to it and buckle down (i feel a lot of readings so far are pushing me to just get shit done and not dick around ahaha)

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Day Twelve: Power

ok apparently my cards wanna be really #aesthetic rn or something ‘cause this is another really pretty reading. the alternating colors, the reversed cards as brackets to the reading, bro and dad again, it’s all v nice. must be a warm welcome to my new followers! (hello there!) hope u guys enjoy some personal tarot rambling ‘cause that’s whatcha signed up for here.. feel free to ask me questions if u feel like it

ok on to the reading

1. How can I be aware of my personal power?

Knight of Cups (reversed): ahaha damn this card reversed again.... ok i don’t think this really has anything to do with water or boats this time so no surprise for me that it’s all about the Knight of Cups themself or themselves?? . there are a couple people in my life rn i could attribute this card/persona to and i guess it’s just warning me to be aware of their effect on me and my effect on them? like i have the Power to engage or not in those relationships and it’s up to me to figure out where i wanna go with that and how i wanna respond to the upset

2. Am I utilizing my fullest potential?

Eight of Wands: ok Bro whatchu got for me today “optimization; good things don’t last forever” ok Bro y u gotta be like this “make the best of what’s in front of us; a tone of urgency, it is the card of swift action and results; points toward quick movement and decision making, a flow of creative management ideas” ok u turned it around for me flipside and i can appreciate that. ahahah i guess this is tellin me that im not right now but i can be soon i just gotta get on that and do it hard fast and dirty right here right now. shits about to go down and i gotta ride that to victory like i won a first-class ticket in the success lotto 😎

3. How can I apply myself most effectively?

King of Cups: hello again Dad. “spark to mature, cultivate his kingdom and ensure prosperity of every person he knows; encourage politeness” so i guess just politely do what needs done so everyone will end up smiles and we can have a pleasant treat of pancakes for dinner. i can respect that. goes well with the action draw for Day Eleven’s reading.

4. What resources are available to me and how do I utilize them?

The High Priestess (reversed): “biding time, patience; placidity, intuition, inner vision, potential; that which is supernatural and obscure” ahahah this tells me Do Not Be Rose. ground myself, make a plan, and act fast!! totally Striderize this. so i would say the resources available are that im p loose on responsibilities rn and i should capitalize on that to take advantage of things that come my way. that my goals and the path to get there are p obvious and i should run full tilt down that road and ignore that wolf bein all coy and tryna distract me with other shiny things. i should use my natural charged up and passionate state to go for gold without getting lost in too many What Ifs of failure

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Day Eleven: Change

Again, some great symmetry in this reading re: nanasprite/god tier john and the pages pm/jack at least i think that’s jack im a bad homestuck

1. What is something in my life that I need to change?

Queen of Pentacles: ok im p familiar with this card by now and happy to see her here because positive personal growth is good in my book. “new business tactic or personal health regiment” ahah yeah i do gotta get on that and look at me go that is mostly the plan for tomorrow 👌🏻 got some possible employers to call and some apps to submit and im gonna get up early and have something approximating a normal schedule ahaha. also gonna bond with the lil sis since she wants me to be there for her first day of third grade 👍🏻

2. Am I willing to make this change?

Page of Pentacles: “imminent message of good fortune, or a short spell of growth and luck” aww yeah all signs point to yes “someone in the subject’s life who is hands-on, hard-working, and youthful” hell yeah gonna make that someone me

3. How can I take action?

Page of Swords (reversed): “subject should be wary of passing on information without fact-checking first, or may need to be careful about someone in their life spreading lies or bad information” ummmmmm so i guess just make sure ive got my shit together heading forward, and to not pretend to know more than i do. to take the humble road rather than the usual self-aggrandizement that usually accompanies job hunting? maybe should check the #reviews and see what’s being said

4. What new beginning will this change create?

The Sun (reversed): “Enlightenment, finding the truth; a moment of glory or vitality; trusting in one’s own abilities” ummMMM so the opposites of this is Not Great? but maybe it’s not really direct opposites and rather, the other path? like not enlightenment but a discovery of things unknown leading to maybe not glory but humility? and instead of trusting my own abilities, learning to accept help and rely more on the abilities of others? woo positive spin. ive always been waaay nervous about asking for help and seeming weak by not knowing things, maybe it’s time to start admitting when im clueless and asking to be informed, or searching out the things i lack so that i can be aware of them and maybe improve

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Day Nine: Skeptical 1. In what ways am I skeptical? Six of Swords (reversed): "completely losing connections or companions, making it harder for the subject to recover" lmao yeah I'm super skeptical about things/relationships/opportunities working out and it makes it hard to come back from failure since I feel like it was always too good to be true to begin with. But I still try!! It's just Hard and I'm always waiting on the other shoe to drop 2. How does my skepticism help me? Nine of Swords: man ok how much does this card love me??? Or are my hanging worries so prominent in my life that there is No Escape. "Encourages the reader to take stock of their life and fears" ok so yeah I guess being skeptical makes u look at everything a million different ways 'cause you always gotta be prepared for everything that can go wrong lmao. I usually do have a million contingencies if I manage not to panic and freeze 3. How does it hurt me? Six of Pentacles: "knowing when to give and receive advice; I told u bro; manage to avoid the stairs(it keeps NOT happening)" I guess it hurts me because I think Too Much and so even if I get good advice I can't just accept it and even if I know the right advice to give I worry about how they will receive it (lmao striking close there with Recent Developments)

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Day Seven: Impulsive 1. What should I do today? Nine of Pentacles: "minor but fulfilling pleasurable rewards; personal pleasures and having your own space" sounds like I should kick it and enjoy the little things. Alright alright alright 😎🍹 2. How will this impulsive action affect me? Knight of Cups (reversed): "may need to take extra care when near water or traveling by boat; the king of cups (intensely pensive or emotional) in the subject's life may be a source of upset (including hypersensitive and lashing out)" well fuck tomorrow we're gonna plan a jaunt into the water to maybe swim with some manta rays so I guess I should be on the lookout there ahaha. Also hell yeah to the second part there has been some serious Tension today and yesterday and lmao I'm hella bad at dealing with that b/c of my past (mysterious I kno) so I've been dealing as well as possible and it's been mostly amazing and I feel that everyone's got rough spots so you know just goin with the flow here and wishin the best for all involved

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Ok Day Two! Possibilities.

1. How can I achieve positive progress in my life?

Page of Pentacles: “Imminent message of good fortune, short spell of growth and luck; may represent someone who is hands-on, hard-working, and youthful” ok so... let the good things come to me?? I guess rolling off that it’s more of a don’t stress u got this message maybe. Also maybe by being that person it mentions?? i mean i am somewhat young and im def hands-on and if im involved in something yeah im hard-working so maybe i just gotta bring that all to bear and let the good fortune come to me as a result idk

2. What tools do I have at my disposal?

Six of Swords: “Overcoming obstacles of the mind, such as past trauma or depression” ahaha my greatest Struggle... but yeah, i guess i’ve done it before so i can do it again, and that’s honestly what i gotta do to accomplish what the Page is tellin me so woo connections

3. What can I do today?

Four of Swords: “stillness and stability in communications; having time to clear your head and take advice on moving forward” don’t panic!! is what im getting here. yeah i do basically have today to send out apps and figure out what im doing with my life rn. I gotta get my car checked too so i guess planing for that as well.

so in summary: calm ur tits and buckle down and good things will come of it