Niko's Tarot Times

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Day Fourteen: Relationships

woo more symmetry but y they all reversed

1. How do I feel about my relationships?

Six of Wands (reversed): “the card for the victor; skipped over or ignored despite their victory” *ugly laughter* i will admit to being fairly needy but terrible about keeping in touch and those are a Not Great combo. so yeah, it’s really easy for me to feel like this even if it is 1000000% not true

2. Am I being honest about my feelings with others?

Three of Pentacles (reversed): “the nurturing of a new opportunity with meager initial investment; despite all efforts, the subject is unable to get their project off the ground” *more ugly laughter* due to Things I am not that great at being honest and instead am more like what I think other people want from me. u kno ur a true friend when i start letting that slip more and u find out the little “““unacceptable”““ parts of me

3. What relationships in my life do I need to reevaluate?

King of Swords (reversed): “an active blocking of ideas or actions in life, or a suppression of information, or that the King (the problem solver, judge, and advisor) in their lives refuses to listen to arguments and may be acting superior and cruel to those around him” man yeah for sure. i’ve been trying to talk to my King for a little while about something and he just...doesn’t seem to understand my view/concern while espousing understanding that i have tried to understand and have already taken that into consideration. in another relationship, i feel p much completely suppressed except when they’re in a good mood. it reminds me a hell of a lot of a past abusive relationship and i just clam up which is Not Good and i worry about another person involved in this who doesn’t really have a way out if they need it

4. How can I exhibit self-love and compassion towards myself?

Knight of Cups (reversed): ok boyo im gettin sick of seein u. and lmao i guess u have been buildin up to tell me to gtfo and distance myself from the Knight since they’re fuckin up my headspace rn. i will... attempt that in the nicest way possible since complete distance would be a no-go. but yeah, i feel this advice since it’s basically what my gma did when gpa died; she cut out all the negative people in her life and was super better for it

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Day Thirteen: Indifference

so apparently indifference is a Major thing for me

1. Why don’t I care?

The Empress: “Maternal nature; luxury, sensuousness; nature and tapping into the natural order” ahahah callin me out. im p set in life rn, with fam who can take care of and support me while i flounder with life and figure out next steps. so even tho there’s stuff i wanna do and there is a bit of a timetable for that i have the space to dick around if i wanna, and that’s easier and super tempting

2. Should I care?

The Moon (reversed): “fear; falling prey to illusions, falsehood, fantasies; delving into the imaginary; loss of direction” hmmm reversal here probably means that these things aren’t an issue atm but since it’s flipside they could be if i continue as i am. also might be dealing more with the reality of the situation and how i should get back to it and buckle down (i feel a lot of readings so far are pushing me to just get shit done and not dick around ahaha)

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Day Twelve: Power

ok apparently my cards wanna be really #aesthetic rn or something ‘cause this is another really pretty reading. the alternating colors, the reversed cards as brackets to the reading, bro and dad again, it’s all v nice. must be a warm welcome to my new followers! (hello there!) hope u guys enjoy some personal tarot rambling ‘cause that’s whatcha signed up for here.. feel free to ask me questions if u feel like it

ok on to the reading

1. How can I be aware of my personal power?

Knight of Cups (reversed): ahaha damn this card reversed again.... ok i don’t think this really has anything to do with water or boats this time so no surprise for me that it’s all about the Knight of Cups themself or themselves?? . there are a couple people in my life rn i could attribute this card/persona to and i guess it’s just warning me to be aware of their effect on me and my effect on them? like i have the Power to engage or not in those relationships and it’s up to me to figure out where i wanna go with that and how i wanna respond to the upset

2. Am I utilizing my fullest potential?

Eight of Wands: ok Bro whatchu got for me today “optimization; good things don’t last forever” ok Bro y u gotta be like this “make the best of what’s in front of us; a tone of urgency, it is the card of swift action and results; points toward quick movement and decision making, a flow of creative management ideas” ok u turned it around for me flipside and i can appreciate that. ahahah i guess this is tellin me that im not right now but i can be soon i just gotta get on that and do it hard fast and dirty right here right now. shits about to go down and i gotta ride that to victory like i won a first-class ticket in the success lotto 😎

3. How can I apply myself most effectively?

King of Cups: hello again Dad. “spark to mature, cultivate his kingdom and ensure prosperity of every person he knows; encourage politeness” so i guess just politely do what needs done so everyone will end up smiles and we can have a pleasant treat of pancakes for dinner. i can respect that. goes well with the action draw for Day Eleven’s reading.

4. What resources are available to me and how do I utilize them?

The High Priestess (reversed): “biding time, patience; placidity, intuition, inner vision, potential; that which is supernatural and obscure” ahahah this tells me Do Not Be Rose. ground myself, make a plan, and act fast!! totally Striderize this. so i would say the resources available are that im p loose on responsibilities rn and i should capitalize on that to take advantage of things that come my way. that my goals and the path to get there are p obvious and i should run full tilt down that road and ignore that wolf bein all coy and tryna distract me with other shiny things. i should use my natural charged up and passionate state to go for gold without getting lost in too many What Ifs of failure

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Day Eleven: Change

Again, some great symmetry in this reading re: nanasprite/god tier john and the pages pm/jack at least i think that’s jack im a bad homestuck

1. What is something in my life that I need to change?

Queen of Pentacles: ok im p familiar with this card by now and happy to see her here because positive personal growth is good in my book. “new business tactic or personal health regiment” ahah yeah i do gotta get on that and look at me go that is mostly the plan for tomorrow 👌🏻 got some possible employers to call and some apps to submit and im gonna get up early and have something approximating a normal schedule ahaha. also gonna bond with the lil sis since she wants me to be there for her first day of third grade 👍🏻

2. Am I willing to make this change?

Page of Pentacles: “imminent message of good fortune, or a short spell of growth and luck” aww yeah all signs point to yes “someone in the subject’s life who is hands-on, hard-working, and youthful” hell yeah gonna make that someone me

3. How can I take action?

Page of Swords (reversed): “subject should be wary of passing on information without fact-checking first, or may need to be careful about someone in their life spreading lies or bad information” ummmmmm so i guess just make sure ive got my shit together heading forward, and to not pretend to know more than i do. to take the humble road rather than the usual self-aggrandizement that usually accompanies job hunting? maybe should check the #reviews and see what’s being said

4. What new beginning will this change create?

The Sun (reversed): “Enlightenment, finding the truth; a moment of glory or vitality; trusting in one’s own abilities” ummMMM so the opposites of this is Not Great? but maybe it’s not really direct opposites and rather, the other path? like not enlightenment but a discovery of things unknown leading to maybe not glory but humility? and instead of trusting my own abilities, learning to accept help and rely more on the abilities of others? woo positive spin. ive always been waaay nervous about asking for help and seeming weak by not knowing things, maybe it’s time to start admitting when im clueless and asking to be informed, or searching out the things i lack so that i can be aware of them and maybe improve

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Ahaha I'll do today's (Sunday's) spread in the morning; adjusting to time zones is hard

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Day Ten: Fear

I would just like to say that this is one of the most visually striking readings I’ve done. I love how it looks with Dad and Bro bracketing a reversed card of such symmetry. 👌🏻

1. What fear is stopping me from doing what I can?

King of Cups: “the spark to mature; the warm comforting father figure; considers it his business to cultivate his "kingdom” and ensure the prosperity of every person he knows; encourages others to act politely" ok rude. I’ve mentioned my Peter Pan-esque tendencies re: growing up. Calling me out on it again I guess. Yes, fine, if I let myself mature I would be able to handle a lot more than I currently am. Bluh

2. Why won’t I allow myself to reach my full potential?

Seven of Cups (reversed): “the subject may have lost the creative spark to dream or imagine at all” God gonna be brutal tonight. Ugh yeah. Sometimes I feel like my goals are so out of reach. I kinda let myself focus on how it’s not gonna work out and back up plans before really embracing the drive to Do The Thing. Lmao my own skepticism and depression/anxiety just kinda dampen my own dreams. That’s hella sad :(

3. How can I overcome what’s scaring me and move past it?

Knight of Swords: ok Bro help a sister out “travel by air, a flurry of ideas, or the potential for arguments which lead to productive changes in a project or relationship; a person who is overly clever, challenges authority, or thinks they are "too cool" " ahaha I'm getting on a plane tomorrow??? Bro don't crash my plane lmao. Ok for real tho I guess I gotta find a Bro-like figure of my own? Or maybe just think all the things real quick and then blow past them like I'm 2 cool for skool and I purposely missed my bus stop. Either that or believe in the you who believes in me and fight the powah to make the impossible possible 😎 by arguing against anyone who would try and stop me including myself

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Day Nine: Skeptical 1. In what ways am I skeptical? Six of Swords (reversed): "completely losing connections or companions, making it harder for the subject to recover" lmao yeah I'm super skeptical about things/relationships/opportunities working out and it makes it hard to come back from failure since I feel like it was always too good to be true to begin with. But I still try!! It's just Hard and I'm always waiting on the other shoe to drop 2. How does my skepticism help me? Nine of Swords: man ok how much does this card love me??? Or are my hanging worries so prominent in my life that there is No Escape. "Encourages the reader to take stock of their life and fears" ok so yeah I guess being skeptical makes u look at everything a million different ways 'cause you always gotta be prepared for everything that can go wrong lmao. I usually do have a million contingencies if I manage not to panic and freeze 3. How does it hurt me? Six of Pentacles: "knowing when to give and receive advice; I told u bro; manage to avoid the stairs(it keeps NOT happening)" I guess it hurts me because I think Too Much and so even if I get good advice I can't just accept it and even if I know the right advice to give I worry about how they will receive it (lmao striking close there with Recent Developments)

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no reading tonight I am Not Up for it

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Day Eight: Goals 1. Am I following my dreams? Queen of Pentacles: "may herald a time of personal healthy growth; may represent someone down to earth, interested in the outdoors or cultivating community" Yeah man this makes me feel like I'm getting there step by step. Just gotta keep myself going in the right direction and not get distracted even tho some adventure along the way won't be too bad 😌 2. How can I honor my creativity and inspirations? Nine of Swords (reversed): "may be ignoring problems allowing them to loom over them and remain undecided" so maybe do that ahaha. Like don't stress out about it but don't let them loom. Sort it out and move on and just kinda flow with whatever comes your way 3. What approach should I consider when reaching my goals? The Hanged Man (reversed): "allowing what will happen to happen, accepting the future; pausing to reflect; martyrdom or sacrifice" ahaha so Go Get 'Em!! Don't be passive and grab life by the balls and make what I wanna happen happen. To not let myself get the best do me and to just charge ahead without thinking of all the ways it could go wrong!!! Wow Karkat the most positive u are and its hanging upside down from a noose. Gj

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Day Seven: Impulsive 1. What should I do today? Nine of Pentacles: "minor but fulfilling pleasurable rewards; personal pleasures and having your own space" sounds like I should kick it and enjoy the little things. Alright alright alright 😎🍹 2. How will this impulsive action affect me? Knight of Cups (reversed): "may need to take extra care when near water or traveling by boat; the king of cups (intensely pensive or emotional) in the subject's life may be a source of upset (including hypersensitive and lashing out)" well fuck tomorrow we're gonna plan a jaunt into the water to maybe swim with some manta rays so I guess I should be on the lookout there ahaha. Also hell yeah to the second part there has been some serious Tension today and yesterday and lmao I'm hella bad at dealing with that b/c of my past (mysterious I kno) so I've been dealing as well as possible and it's been mostly amazing and I feel that everyone's got rough spots so you know just goin with the flow here and wishin the best for all involved

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Day Six: Success (AKA what is this the cha cha slide?? Reverse reverse!!)

1. What does success mean to me?

Temperance (reversed): “Balance, harmony, synthesis; Avoiding the extreme” i feel like maybe this shoulda come up not reversed but hm well success to me is Big. It’s being able to show off and excel, even if you don’t show it off. But it’s definitely not blending in tot eh crowd and being like, slightly above average, you know? It’s being able to drop ridiculous amounts of money on something frivolous just because you can and being the best at what you do and doing it with flair.

2. What aids me in the development of my success?

Ten of Swords (reversed): “The card of self-made martyrs; the reader may have languished too long and their imagined swords have become real problems, or they’ve driven away others with their complaints and cannot overcome their troubles alone” ouch. yeah. but how does this aid me??? a sort of trial by fire?? I guess if i get past thinking i’ve got all these problems it should be smooth sailing ‘cause i made them all up??

3. What hinders me?

Two of Cups (reversed): “may indicate instant dislike upon meeting someone, or a failure to pursue a potential relationship” ummm????? i can be quick to judge i guess so maybe i give up on things too quickly and should stick it out?

4. What is my motivating factor for my personal successes?

The Fool (reversed): “Beginnings, infinite possibilities; taking chances, eschewing logic, spontaneity” ???????????? oh. ahahah yeah. stability and comfort are like my #1 goals in life. so ending things neatly and playing it safe so things are good in the long run def motivate me. i want the best, safest, quickest route from A to B so too many possibilities stress me out and too much spontaneity makes me worried about the future. sorry my boi dave, i gotta be all responsible and shit gotta live that cushy life and cant risk it on a sick thrill

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Day Five: Quiet

1. What about me do I keep quiet?

Nine of Swords: “The card of mounting anxieties” OH FCK U “It advises taking inventory of your troubles, sorting everything out in order to sleep more easily; encourages taking stock of their lives and fears; may also predict insomnia or restlessness” God i don’t even have to say anything here i have been called out and dragged thoroughly.

2. Why do I keep it on the DL?

Wheel of Fortune (reversed): “Understanding the cycles of life/destiny/fate, a turning point in luck; Feeling that a change is occurring, experiencing an epiphany.” I don’t tell many people about the depths of my anxieties because god that is Too Much and it is Inescapable and I feel so Trapped. I don’t want anyone to see me this lost under all my anxieties about friends and my goals and the future and Everything.

3. Should I make this aspect of me better known?

The World: “Integration, synthesis; accomplishment, blossoming, being active in a community; fulfillment and wholesomeness” A whole-hearted YES GET ON WITH IT from these rude af cards. I know talking about it and having people understand what’s going on with me re: anxiety would be for the best but honestly........ im too good at playing fine lmao. and i hate seeming weak or as not in control of my life so making it known is hard. even tho i do hint at it and sorta bring it up more, ahaha some of my fam don’t really seem to believe me or don’t understand how serious it is. sigh

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Ahaha ok so Death came to party for Day Four: Negativity

awesome. let’s begin

1. What negative feelings am I holding on to?

Queen of Pentacles (reversed): “May herald a new time of personal healthy growth; a person who is down-to-earth; stubbornness in this person, an unwillingness to change” well callin me out right there with stubbornness and an unwillingness to change. I really don’t want to move on to being a Responsible Adult yet even tho I gotta. This year between schools is almost perpetuating this feeling in a peter pan sort of way. sigh. so yeah, no growth because i don wanna

2. Why am I holding onto these feelings?

Ace of Wands (reversed): “not experiencing the passion you feel you should for a new opportunity” NO SHIT god rude. I’ve been looking for work in the medical field (since I have a cert for MA and can do that) and I am super passionate about medicine but like..certain aspects and not the ones you can get from being an MA lmao. but i need $$$ work and more experience in the field but ugh it’s not what I really want to be doing and that always makes it hard for me to do it

3. What is the first step in extinguishing these negative feelings?

Motherfuckin Death: before even the blurb i know i gotta just cut that shit out and lo an behold “bringing something to a close, moving from one phase to another; Trimming excess; Being acted on by outside forces, the inescapable” ok i get it i’ll suck it up and just do the thing jfc why you gotta be so Rude and hamfisted

4. How can I bring positive feelings and experiences in my life?

Seven of Cups: “warns against overindulgence of one’s imagination, or one will get lost in endless possibilities and never reach a decision; return back to earth to make a decision” = MAKE A DECISION ALREADY jeez i get it ok ok im on it stop harping. it’s better to not fantasize about all the awesome shit i could be doing and get the shit i can do done since that’s less disappointing than trying and failing to live up to my inflated expectations.

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Hokay little late but here’s Day Three: Festive

I’m just gonna go ahead and say that before I even really thought about it I knew that that much Clown on a Festive drawing was Significant

1. How can I celebrate myself?

Strength (reversed): For major arcana my lil booklet gives me attributes so I’ll list those for the record and then talk about their inverses. “Soft and deliberate control; Guidance and influence; Patience, compassion, showing resolve, enduring, reliability.” Ok so honestly im seeing a big Cut Loose here which with gamz up in there takin control of that card instead of my main lady kanaya (who is all of these Strength things what a bae) makes a ton of sense. And ive been under mad pressure lately about what the hell im doin with my life so goddamn maybe i should just crack a sweet drink and lay back and enjoy my motherfuckin vacay yeeeeeeeee 🍹🍹🍹💁🏼🍹🍹🍹

2. How can I celebrate life?

Two of Pentacles (reversed): “Juggling several options in order to cover one’s bases, the subject has not made a permanent solution but has bought time to do so; the subject’s options may have dwindled or disappeared” How is this about celebrating life this is fuckin callin me out here. Since graduation I’ve been trying to figure out where to settle and what the fuck to do with this time between undergrad and hopefully med school and yeah ive felt my options closin in but i got some certs i needed to proceed and since i’ll be in hawaii for a week that’s some time away to maybe look at things and regroup and come back swinging afterward. god we’ll see. so maybe now is not the time to celebrate life and find some solutions or maybe the solution is to celebrate life and the choices i have and go for them whole-heartedly idk givin me whiplash like gamzee’s vacillating text

3. How can I be more festive from day to day?

The Moon (reversed): “Fear; Falling prey to illusions, falsehoods, fantasies; Delving into imagination; Loss of direction” loss.jpeg except more like gain.jpeg!! ok so ditch the fear and ground myself in reality and pick a direction and fuckin charge. that is some shit i can get behind hell yeah. Just gotta tell that anxiety to suck it, Not Today Not Any Day, and figure out what i can do in the here and now to get where I wanna be. Fuck yeah

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Ok Day Two! Possibilities.

1. How can I achieve positive progress in my life?

Page of Pentacles: “Imminent message of good fortune, short spell of growth and luck; may represent someone who is hands-on, hard-working, and youthful” ok so... let the good things come to me?? I guess rolling off that it’s more of a don’t stress u got this message maybe. Also maybe by being that person it mentions?? i mean i am somewhat young and im def hands-on and if im involved in something yeah im hard-working so maybe i just gotta bring that all to bear and let the good fortune come to me as a result idk

2. What tools do I have at my disposal?

Six of Swords: “Overcoming obstacles of the mind, such as past trauma or depression” ahaha my greatest Struggle... but yeah, i guess i’ve done it before so i can do it again, and that’s honestly what i gotta do to accomplish what the Page is tellin me so woo connections

3. What can I do today?

Four of Swords: “stillness and stability in communications; having time to clear your head and take advice on moving forward” don’t panic!! is what im getting here. yeah i do basically have today to send out apps and figure out what im doing with my life rn. I gotta get my car checked too so i guess planing for that as well.

so in summary: calm ur tits and buckle down and good things will come of it

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Ok giving the Spread A Day another go!! since I completely failed the first time through ahaha

Day 1: Comfort

1. In what ways do I seek comfort?

The Hermit: “Introspection, Solitude; Offering/being offered council, taking advice, seeking a truth or the self.” wow ok callin me a loner rude seriously tho when things go wrong I do have a habit of either going to a select few people to ask what’s wrong with me advice for whatever’s going on, or retreating into myself and looking for Why the thing upsets me so much or why I’m feeling so down. I also sometimes do the solitude route without any of the introspection, just kinda siiink into myself and ignore the world tru hermit style

2. How can I find it within myself?

Two of Wands (reversed): “A fork in the road, two options of equal importance and value, you are in control of your destiny but there is a choice to make; reversed: options are indistinguishable so you feel unable to decide.” ahaha make a damn decision is what i’m hearing here. (why u gotta be so rude dave) honestly tho it’s what i gotta do. And I did start doin this! so. progress. I do feel a ton better once i commit to something, indecision just kills me and makes me draw out what would otherwise have been a clear-cut choice until i just start avoiding it or joking around it and not getting shit Done. so guess i gotta just push thru and fake it til i make it 😎

3. What do I need from others to feel more comfortable?

Ten of Pentacles (reversed): “May be expecting a payout that’s never coming, may be expecting to inherit money but will inherit debts instead.” god not what I wanna hear when im job hunting thanks but like... in terms of comfort, maybe im just expecting too much??? and i need to not do that? When put that way, it’s super real. ugh. i often put waaay too much importance on other people’s opinions aha. So maybe what I need from others is.. Less. like, part of that will be me not asking for opinions on some things and part of that will be them cutting it out if i say im not down with how they’re reacting idk