New Horizons
Dash and I have separated, probably far too late in all honesty, but we have done it. He moved out about six weeks ago and we spent the intervening time in complete radio silence, as agreed. We met up again this week on our anniversary and that was all kinds of emotional and difficult. We spent ten hours together, laughed a lot and somehow I still came away miserable.
I feel sad because I love him and want to kiss him, and cannot even go within 2 metres of him due to COVID. I feel grateful to have that excuse. I feel relieved to not have to be the one dealing with his dishonesty and immaturity anymore. I feel confused and hurt and trapped and free and just downright weird.
Here is the first photo of me ever on this blog: look! It's my face! Wearing my own wares! Though this one isn't mine anymore, it's been got.
I have recently been throwing myself wholeheartedly into taking my businesses online. I made handfuls of beautiful fairytale hoods to sell on my etsy (Sprite Threads: https://etsy.me/36HQOtM ), I have opened a stall at a local flea market with my sister, and I have been recording and uploading weeknightly Bedtime Stories to the Lucid Tales YouTube channel to ease everyone's COVID lockdown blues and SAD. If you're struggling to sleep, check it out - I've got stories from all over, with more to come.
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCf3zhIdOR-CVtx1vqFKsEcA
I even wrote some of them myself, as a part of my next exciting news: I released a book of short stories!
The collection comprises 10 short stories ranging from fantasy to horror to drug exploration to comedy. I even wrote a reasonable blurb:
If you like the cover art check out Rosie Josie Baker/Rosie Josie Bee on Instagram/Facebook!
And if you want a copy of the ebook message me on here and I'll send you one 😊 it's £2.99 normally but as I've been so unreliable on this daily blogging thing I figure y'all deserve SOMETHING to read. If you want a paperback I can post them but those unfortunately do require monetary exchange. They're available on the Lucid Tales Gumroad at https://gumroad.com/lucidtales :)
Anyway I didn't make this post to sell stuff to y'all, I'm just excited and want to share what I've been up to. And I wanted to share a selfie anyway (even if I don't quite look like that anymore now I've shaved my head).
In other news I have become obsessed with silk as a fabric and have been lurking endlessly on ebay auctions for cheap secondhand nightwear, but that's less shareable 😂. I have also just started on a counselling course to start my training as a future polyamory and lgtbq+ focused sex and relationships therapist (hopefully)! And I'm going for autism diagnosis! In two years! That's how long the waiting list is from referral to diagnosis! Go UK! All autism support funding ceases in 2023! What little there already is! Go UK!
It's been a busy time, and a lonely one, as I'm sure it has been for many of you.
What have you done recently that you're happy about?
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