#ssbhm thoughts

[bramblesqrl]

I love being able to reach down and jiggle a handful of belly that’s too big for me to reach the bottom of.

I love having a round friendly face.

I love being able to eat more delicious food than the average person.

I love being soft and warm.

I love that having to take things slow due to my size has given me patience for others.

I love that I give the best hugs.

Being fat is the best.

I can’t wait for even more of it.

[bramblesqrl]

Is there anything you would add onto the "real facts about being 500 pounds". There arent many resources talking about what its like(at least from someone who doesen't hate themselves for no reason).

This has been sitting in my inbox for a while now. I was going to hold off an answering it until I hit 500. But I’m 5’6” and have a BMI of 78 so my experience is probably close enough.

- You won’t fit anywhere, when you go out you have to do research ahead of time and look for photos online to find out if you will have anywhere you can sit down.

- Walking more than a block will be exhausting. I got my doctor to sign off on a disabled parking tag when I hit 475 pounds.

- You will almost always be the fattest person no matter where you are

- There is joy to be had in being very soft and very heavy. Everything takes extra effort, even just getting up off the couch. But all that effort is very gratifying. A reminder that you are building the body you need to feel at home in your own skin.

- Giving yourself permission to eat whatever you want whenever you want is very liberating. The world of food becomes an endless adventure.

- No matter what you go to the doctor for they will suggest you lose weight. In my experience doctors seem to be getting better about this. But it may also be because I started declining to let them weigh me once I hit 400 pounds. I find I get better care when they aren’t just focused on one number.

- Belly rubs will become a religious experience. Even more so if you have managed to stuff your enormous belly full of delicious foods.

- Relating to normal sized people gets harder. They basically live on another planet. Finding friends can be harder too since most people are not okay with just letting fat people exist. Invest your time in communities that care about you and want you to be happy at any size.

- You can still get bigger. A lot bigger. 500 pounds is not as big as you think it is.

[bramblesqrl]

I’m craving the feeling of getting so much fatter that gravity has me fully pinned in place. Fully surrounded and encased in my own soft warm blubber and still hungry for more. I’m going to be absolutely enormous.

[bramblesqrl]

It’s nice to know I’ve been able to maintain my weight in the 490’s without any effort for the last 3-4 months. It feels like a nice big fat accomplishment that this is my new default size. The urge to get fatter is creeping back in though. I need to be softer. 600 pounds of plush heavy blubber has never stopped feeling like something I need to experience.

[bramblesqrl]

I know it’s kind of unreasonable to be pushing 500 pounds at only 5’6” and be thinking “Damn I need to get so much bigger.” But Damn, I really do need to get so much bigger than this.

[bramblesqrl]

Big soft jiggly fatpads shaped like vintage jello molds

[bramblesqrl]

It can be kinda lonely being the fattest person in the room all the time. Sometimes you just need another person to be enormous with.

[bramblesqrl]

You’re looking great lately y’know? You’ve been gaining for years now, and you’ve gotten huge, it looks amazing - but you’re right. 500 isn’t enough. It was never going to be enough. 600 won’t be enough. There isn’t a number that will be enough. Not for someone like yourself.

You’re not the kind of person to let a number restrict how big they can be; how fat you can get. It’s clear you want more, but be honest with what you want. A number on a scale? Hardly.

You want growing to be your daily goal. You want your highest weight to be something new every day. That glorious gut of yours? It should be bigger-fatter, just a bit more every day. I want you to wake up every morning and tell yourself that you’re ready for it. You’re ready to start growing- to get bigger - heavier - fatter - for the day. You’re ready for it right? To balloon and swell until it’s all you can do anymore?

Yes, I am so ready. There’s always been a greedy piggy inside of me that needs to eat and eat until they’ve gotten too fat to do anything else. A lot of my life has been about learning to embrace that porker and letting them make me happy. I need to be fatter.