#star thinks

[wardofwinters]

It’s interesting how Lady gained negative connotations but Lord didn’t.

Like, there’s a “crazy cat Lady” but not a “crazy cat Lord” (or even a “crazy cat Liege”). And people will call women “Lady” in a derisive way, but don’t call men “Lord” in a derisive way (and Liege is underused in general).

[thewritingstar]

It sucks because I have so many requests and things half finished and I want/need to post more fics but with work and summer classes starting tomorrow and me not being in the right head space, it’s becoming harder too.

I really just want to sit down and write and give y’all some good fics, I’m sorry for the lack of updates and even my commitment in my discord servers are lacking.

But I’ve been thinking about removing my wips just because I’m at a stand still with them.

[starsona]

Got a lot of frustration that boils over. I realize that, when something good happens, the frustration feels like it goes away a bit but it never really does. When something bothers you and you get even the slightest positive thing you were desperate to hear or get, all of the frustration melts away for a bit. You try to keep that little bit of happiness around just to give yourself a break until it's gone. Then you have to try and dwell on what you don't have. Even if it'll come back you're so desperate at this point that it feels like you've lost it for good so you keep those feelings you had in your mind for as long as you can so it can replace the frustration it once felt until it can manifest somewhere else. Like a minor inconvenience, some bad news, a challenge that most people would like, tasting something you don't like, etc. It'll explode out whenever it can. That's what I'm going through atm. It honestly isn't the worst thing if nothing bad happens. But tripping over a shoelace would probably send me into a frenzy. Hopefully my therapist can help me with this issue since she already knows about it.