Someone asked me why I don't do art requests, and honestly? The main reason is kinda stupid but at the same time valid to me. And that's the fact that everytime I did simple art requests in the past on my older blogs- which was still very ruby/sapphire/rupphire oriented, many of the first requests were 'draw La/pis in-' and truth is...
I just don't like La/pis.
I am not so petty to shit on her design or anything- her design is fine, and her new clothes suits her much better in my opinion- but I just don't like her as a character. I could write an essay on why (not a good idea as it would quickly derail from the main point as my dislike takes over) but to keep it simple: Lapis represent everything I worked hard to overcome, and I just can't help but feel some disdain to her just... not trying. At all. For a very long time.
It probably feels unfair to some- but that's just how I feel, and sorry but some feelings aren't logical. I am not saying she should have 'get over it', no- I acknowledge her trauma, her pain, her depression- but trouble is... she didn't try to heal. Blaming others, getting defensive- and doing some shitty things to people that did care for her and not even saying sorry.
(I get that the show is from Steven's pov but it just itches that I didn't see anything like that )
She never acknowledged that most of her misery was caused by herself and that really didn't endear her to me.
Yeah, it's a bias, but that's just how it is. Behaving shitty because of a trauma is an explanation, not an excuse.
Another kinda smaller reason is that I lived through the rabid Lap/idot craze, and that can of worms only gotten more rotten.
tldr; I don't do requests because everyone always requests La/pis and I just don't like La/pis. I don't like her character, I don't like her general behaviour, I don't like her in any ship whatsoever. Being a ruby lover and rupphire lover, it especially irks me when I see her shipped/fused with any rubies, or held in higher regard than the fucking canon lesbian ship that is Rupphire.
Ship her, like her, whatever strikes your fancy- but I am not about to join that crowd any time soon.