healthy coping mechanisms
yup ya gurl is reallyyyy fucking ready to take a break from the nonsense and heal and grow LOL
locked up my drugs for a few days and just feeling like it's time to let this go. i miss reading and kickboxing and i want to focus my energy there and on friendship/DnD and other healthy coping strategies.
weed was so helpful for me to create some distance between myself and my abuse. it let me relax and escape and that was so so important for me in college and early adulthood. but now that im dealing with this trauma head on i've noticed my usage is going up because my nervous system is triggered and i just can't self regulate. i don't feel in control and i don't like that and am taking it as the warning it is. and im seeing other folks my age making the same choice to either step back and grow, or not. i want to be the best version of myself and addiction is 100% gonna stand in the way.
plus i feel like i don't need the escapism the way that i used to. i love myself, my body, my life, and now i just want good healthy things in it 😊