#startagainseries

[callithyia]

Start Again #3

I have a secret, a secret that i will treasure forever.

But i cannot seem to zip my mouth so, i worte it down.

I like someone, it's a like that i can never tell

and it's a like that i wan't to end but i can't i wan't him to know but he can't

for what we hold is more precious than what i seek but, is it a sin?

to be selfish to want him only, but only for myself?

i never realized such desire and it never tore me this hard like now

if only, i didn't feel my heart go out of tune if only, it felt awful, but it didn't

i am sometimes blurred by his friendly nature "he does this to everyone else", i thought

but i can't convince myself enough he made me feel special

a different kind of special it's that cherry-blossom kind of special

and it frustrated me i cannot like him

i musn't...

[callithyia]

Start Again #2

Did I lie? writing those words of eternity.

Did I lie? when it felt like a sworn of butterflies came crashing down

Did I lie? when i thought i said "I love you."

Did I lie? for i left you with my handwritten thoughts alone

[callithyia]

S t a r t A g a i n #1

8:52 p.m, Sunday, 26th of January 2020

I never thought i'd open this blank sheet of pixel paper again, to be honest, i stopped writing my feelings ever since i wrote lovely words to someone i thought i could keep but we were loose threads in the end. I was afraid to end a paragraph of honesty because, once it does, it end in real life. All of those flowery texts will wither, it will wilt, and it will be illegible It has become a complete lie.