I just finished my third semester of college. Wow. Hard to believe that time has flown by this quickly. Christmas is already in ten days, and then it will be 2018, the year I will get my happiness back for good.
For starters, while I am off from school on this winter break, I am going to start taking care of myself the way I should be. I have been eating so horribly since I went back to school, and I’ve definitely put on a little more weight. I want to get back to where I was my senior year of high school (before I put all the weight I lost back on). So after the holidays, I am going to cut down on sugary drinks, drink more water, and eat more fruits and vegetables and less of what I have been eating now. I am also going to (finally!) get my driver’s license and I’m gonna try and start working at Target again. I have not been working at my current job since this school year started, and because of this, I’m required to reapply and go through a whole other orientation, and I lose the raise I was supposed to get this month. Which sucks. And isn’t worth going back there.
Then, when I start my spring semester, it will be considerably less stressful, as I have decided to take a semester off from my music studies. I am looking to transfer universities for the Fall 2018 semester, but I still had a few gen-eds to take, so I decided to cram them all into one semester so I don’t have to spend too much extra time in the university I’m planning on transferring to. When I transfer, then I will resume my music studies. I will be focusing on composition and music theory while I am there, and then I will hopefully get my master’s in music education. The music program I was at for a year and a half caused me to have so many anxiety attacks, a lot of extra stress, and not to mention, I had a professor who never had anything good to say about me and made me feel like I was a shitty musician and person. I did make some wonderful friends while I was there, and I will miss them, but overall, I could just feel my passion for music being sucked out of me. I want to compose. I absolutely love arranging and writing music for chamber ensembles. But with only one composition class at my current program, it is certainly not sufficient enough for someone like me.
I am hoping 2018 will be the year where I am finally truly happy for longer than a week. I have already worked toward eliminating the sources of negativity in my life, and I am trying to surround myself around more positive people. Sorry this has turned into an extremely lengthy post, but I just needed to reflect.