#steph's rambles

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hey so I actually don't think you should be breathing that much, like don't you already breathe enough? it isn't a good look to be inhaling and exhaling that much. idkk I'm just worried about your health, you know how many toxic chemicals are in the air :/ if you want I can surgically take out one of your lungs so that you won't breathe as much! you'll feel much better :) omg do you see that guy over there trying to catch his breath that's so funny haha he's breathing so much hold on I'm gonna film him real quick so my friends and I can all laugh at him later! hey so I heard about this new thing called "suffocation" and it's supposed to help you not breathe as much isn't that great? I mean yeah people die from that but at least we found a cure for the breathing epidemic! btw all of this is so normal

[mush-dooms]

Chappell Roan having her naturally curly hair always out on full display is just another reason to love her, esp a world where natural curly hair is deemed ugly and messy and not worth the effort

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gnats are like...omg I wanna kill myself in your eyeball sooo badly.... why won't you let me kill myself in your eyeball... please it wluld make me so happy to die in your eyeball....please i am begging I want to die soooo bad

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warrior nun was a good show and its such a shame it got canceled and i said what I said

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not to jinx things but its wild that even only a few months out of treatment and being stable ed brain is sooo much quieter and even recovery stuff is taking up so much less space in my life. I got so used to my entire life either being trying to not use behaviors or planning to use behaviors or using behaviors and ppl were shocked when I wanted to d1e. turns out life actually can be more than just getting by?? I NEVER in one million years thought I would be happier without weight loss or chasing my "dream" body but I am!!

[mush-dooms]

don't like that there's not a woman version of "guy" like sure there's "gal" but that isn't even close to being the same and not to look to deep but "guy" implies average-ness in a way that "gal" could never because "just some guy" is nobody in particular but "just some gal" is a Woman and a Woman cannot be average because she is already someone. like that one lego movie quote says. hold on where is it

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do u ever think about how most of existence is beyond our comprehension and always will be

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absolutely humbling if not outright humiliating that human hands shake when we are caffinated and/or nervous. especially when being watched while trying to load tiny little samples into tiny little gel wells.